BACK TO TEARS OF SUFFERING
Can life be full of joy and tranquility? Every ounce of my breath was yearning to relieve from sadness that I have been suffering. When I was in grade eight my house was raised to ground and my academic position was degraded which was truly devastating. With no clothes to wear after the effect of that fire and left with just school dress I have been wearing.
Sometimes blessing in disguise happens without warning and friends and blood relations are truly soul sent by god for my rescue. I was awestruck to know that my lovely home is no more. It was the time when I truly hated see my mom with tears in her eyes.
"Pema, everything happens for a reason", said my best friend Tshewang.
"I am ok".
"Tshewang please take care of my leave procedures. I won't be back to school till the situation here is calmed down".
I have two sisters but both of them are in boarding schools which added the burden. My mom was out of control and she was too shocked to accept the reality.
My dad is a contractor but loan sharks are after him every day and night after that incident because he invested every single cent he has for the reconstruction of our new home.
Days are like night mare fighting with internal depression and physical challenges.
School days are flying with lightning speed with no intention of waiting for my hard days to get over.
I thought this too shall pass but it turned out that it left greater effect than anything could.
Finally, midterm exam came and after two weeks' results were declared but unknown to me that I successfully downgraded myself from distinction to just good. Teachers surrounded me in assembly ground questioned me. Some used violence for letting them down but I didn't have any options.
"Pema, Do you have boyfriend or what? How could you let us down after having so much of faith in you", chastised my history teacher.
Situation got out of my hand and I was in dilemma but my best friend was happy and pretended to be truly sad because she could finally cast out my score.
Fear not for lion in den if you have perseverance. But all I could do was to study hard to score high in final exam. I have studied smartly and given my best but the hard work was futile.
Who would have known that I would give my best friend another satisfaction of defeating me?
At last I couldn't defeat her due to certain points taken from midterm exam and that was the end of lower school.
After the completion of lower school, I went to high school where I met my unseen boyfriend and fell in love and got the remembrance of hurt and betrayal.