They say that people who face death felt some sort of nostalgia.
Reminiscing their actions and past.
Regretting the things they've done and yet to do.
As you can guess, I am one of those people that are on the brink death.
Ever since I was born, I was diagnose of Congenital Heart Disease and it was the worst case so I never even once left the hospital.
The hospital is practically my house, I was even given my very own room.
As for my family, they already gave up on me and I also gave up on them as well.
Well at first they always visit me and never missing a single day but when my younger brother was born, it gradually lessens until it came the time when they stopped coming all together.
So now my 'FAMILY' is now my nurse and doctor... oh and the kids that stays in the hospital as well.
To be honest, I have some dissatisfaction against my family but as I ponder about it more, I realize that maybe seeing me like this hurts them more than I imagine and that maybe this is for the best.
My dissatisfaction turned to self-loath then sadness and eventually loneliness.
During that time I began to question my existence...
"Why was I even born?"
"What was my very purpose?"
"Am I even allowed to live?"
"Is this what I am supposed to do?"
And before I knew it, I fell into anxiety then gradually depression.
Because of my depression, my frail health and fragile heart deteriorate more until my body began to crumble.
...…
Now we came back to the present where death awaits for me to let go life.
Just as I was about to close my eyes and bid my farewell to the world, the door opens.
The one that came are my nurse, Wakase Sayaka, my doctor, Takuno Naru-sensei, and four more people that I don't recognize.
"Saya-nee, Taku-sensei you are just in time I was about to close my eyes at least I got to see you before then... By the way who are they?"
As soon as I asked the question both of them showed a bitter smile while the two while the two adults got depressed and the other two is a bit awkward.
I assess the four, the two adults looks like on their 40s and they seem very familiar to me. I wonder where I saw them...
The other two are kids that are 13 years old and 8 years old.
I got more curious about them so I ask Saya-nee and Taku-sensei about them.
Both of them looks like they're contemplating if they're going to tell me or not, so I decided to just ask them directly.
"Oba-san, oji-san... who are you?"
"........."
Instead of answering oba-san burst out crying and oji-san is shedding tears.
I am quite shock and confuse that I signal Saya-nee and Taku-sensei for help.
Taku-sensei then tries to make light on the situation and finally introduced them.
"Yuki-chan, don't you remember them at all? These two are your parents and the ones behind them are your younger brothers"
"............…."
"Yuki-chan?"
"HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA!!!!
Nice one Taku-sensei… Parents? Psh as if they'll come
You're the best Taku-sensei, thanks for making me laugh one last time
But seriously who are they?
Are they the parents of the patient I'm going to give my eyes to?"
"Yuki-chan it is not a joke nor is they the recipient of your eyes… They are your family"
The more that Taku-sensei insists it, the more irritated I become.
Instead of shouting and throwing a tantrum, I took a deep breath and let out a big sigh.
"Fine, let's say that they are my 'FAMILY'… What about it?
Didn't you abandon me years ago?
Why are you here now? It's not like my death will bring you fortune or anything"
Silence engulfed the room.
Saya-nee, Taku-sensei and both of my so called parents didn't utter a word.
My supposedly 'little brothers' seems to know nothing about the situation.
I let out another big sigh and spoke again.
"Never mind what I said, you guys don't need to answer it…
It doesn't and won't matter anymore…
I'm going to die today so it won't really change anything…"
"Yuki-chan…"
Oba-san called out my name. I looked at her and gave a sad smile as my reply.
Upon seeing my reaction, brought more tears.
I then turn my attention to my 'little brothers'
To be honest, I don't know how to talk to them. I know I should at least know their name but thinking about the fact that they've been with my 'parents' all this time makes me a bit hesitant.
[Is this jealousy…? But no matter how jealous I am, time won't turn back. I should at least get to know them before I go]
Thus gathering up all my courage I asked the two of them to come forward.
I took their hands in mine look at their faces, trying to engrave it in my mind.
After assessing them, I finally asked them for their names.
"Hey there… As you can see, I'm supposed to be your onee-chan but quite honestly I don't know what to say to you guys so why don't we start with a simple introduction… does that sound good?"
The two of them didn't speak just looked at each other before nodding.
"Well, I'll start…
I am Katsura Yuki, 20 years old
My hobbies are reading and handicrafts. I also know 3 languages Japanese, English and Spanish. I don't have any favorite food… and that's about it, your turn"
"Um, I-I am Katsura Shun, 13 years old
I'm studying at Fuko Junior High. I'm also a part of the basketball club and I'm not that good in studying.
I also want to meet Nee-chan ever since I was 6 years old…"
I was speechless when he said that he wanted to meet me because I was sure that my parents wouldn't tell them anything about me. I was the burden they have to carry after all.
I was not even over the shock that I receive from Shun when the other one spoke.
"Ano… Nee-chan, I am Katsura Riku desu~
I am 8 years old and I am currently studying in Fuko Elementary school~
Ano ne… Nee-chan do you hate us?"
First Shun and now Riku, I wonder how our parents raised them.
I let out a sigh then face Shun and Riku. I hold onto their hands and look at them in the eyes and said
"I don't hate you, in fact I'm very happy to have you here with me.
Take care of mom and dad, I know they may not be the best parents for me but it's different with you so cherish them.
*yawn* I guess it's time for me to sleep now…."
"Nee-chan…"
"It was nice meeting yo-"
I wasn't able to finish what I was saying before my visions black out and I flop down on the bed.
And with that I left the land of living.
Well that what I was planning but I guess plans don't really go as you want them to be…