So my doctor wants me to write in this journal about my feelings and crap but personaly, I just want to write is it for fun ya know? Hi im Sean Powel and I have a slight anger problem so ive been going to therapy for like four months and it dosent help, like AT ALL. But my Aunt Jo INSISTS that I go anyways because she thinks it helps. I go just to make sure SHE dosent have to go. actually im on my way to a therapy appointment right now, we are pulling into the parking lot, il write later.

AUNT JO-"Ok when we go in DONT tackle other teens like last time, I dont want us getting kicked out k?"

SEAN-"YES MISS HANNIGAN!"

AUNT JO-"Dont call me that!"

SEAN-"K AJ!"

AUNT JO-"That either, can you just get in there! Il be waiting in the car, your 15 you can check in by yourself."

SEAN-"Frickin fine! Be back in an hour."

AUNT JO-"Ok il be here."

I walked inside that damn building to talk to a damn therapist for a damn hour. It sucked and we talked about nothing helpfull, great. I walked back to my aunt's car and she asked how it went, I said "It went."

AUNT JO-"Well its better than nothing."

SEAN-"Not realy, it sucks going there every week."

AUNT JO-"Well you need it with your last 'episode' and all!"

SEAN-"Please dont bring that up!"

AUNT JO-"Well I was using it as refrence!"

The 'episode' she was talking about was when I shoved a pen in the eye of the teacher that gave me one too many F's.

AUNT JO-"Anyway I know you arent very religous but I thought mabey it would help. Try to find something to believe in please, ok?"

SEAN-"Fine! Il look at some things alright!"

I did as I said I would, If I say imma do something il do it whatever it is. That night I was online researching religions and crap, when I found this site about worshiping darkness. It seemed pretty cool but then I found out the religion had been dead for about 100 years but there was a revisitation in town at like the next town over tomorrow.

SEAN-"YO AJ I FOUND ONE CAN YOU TAKE ME THERE TOMORROW?"

AUNT JO-"Fine, only of you stop calling me AJ."

SEAN-"YES MISS HANNIGAN!"

AUNT JO-"Do you want to go or not?"

The next day she took me there and again waited outside. I went in and followed the signs to the ritual room. It was weird, no one was anywhere to be found. The ritual room was locked but I heared voices from behind the door I decided to ram the door. I backed up quite a bit and... BAM! I lost my footing and fell onto the altar they were using knocking whatever the hell they were using for the summoning off. then all I saw was some sort of blacklight and then darkness.

I looked around and all I saw was black, everywhere! I called out for my Aunt Jo but there was no response. Suddenly I saw a light in the dark next to... I guess negative dark, it looked pretty cool.

LIGHT-"Quick come into the light I heve something to give you."

DARK-"Join me I will give you real power!"

LIGHT-"Don't listen to him! that is Shad the pure essense of darkness!"

SHAD-"How can you trust him? He is Destiny he controls your destiny too he just wants to use you for his own power!"

DESTINY-"Dont listen to him he just wants a vessel to control so he can be free from this place!"

SHAD-"Come on whats the harm in choosing the thing that you alraedy worked so hard to get."

SEAN-"What do you mean?"

DESTINY-"Yo-"

SHAD-'I mean you were summoned by this dumbass the exact moment the cult was putting me into you so either way your stuck with me."

DESTINY-"Please go into the light, I know people that can get Shad out of you. Just trust me."

SHAD-"Decide, whats already inside of you or that bitch."

SEAN-"Um gimme a sec."

I had an important decision to make. It would make sense to choose Shad because if what he said was right, and he was already inside me... I walked into the darkness. As soon as I touched Shad my skin began to crawl, my skin began to melt off of my skin, and the room was spinning around me. For a solid minute I felt like I was in hell everything sucked so hard. I woke up convulsing, I had to be held down by the cult to stop shaking. Finally when I had stopped I sat up and looked at my scorched black skin, I felt so angry, but not at anything in particular just mad. Suddenly my skin started emmiting some light but it wasnt light it was like... Darkness.

SEAN-"DAMMIT!RAGH!"

I punched the stone altar I was sitting on and it split in two. I looked at my hands and they sparked this half photo negative black half normal black and I looked at all of the cult members and I just wanted them to pay for what had happened to me, someone had to pay, everyone had to pay. I looked at the cult leader, stared him in the eyes slightly below his hood, reached out and closed my fist. His head was being crushed, it was getting smaller, you could see his head being morphed into the shape of my fist. I let go of his head and it sprung back to its normal size but his head was leaking blood on the floor. The leader colapsed to the ground.

The cult members looked horrified they started to run but I raised both of my hands half clenched and they all froze and started floating into the air. I knew all of my powers as soon as I got them so I knew all of my capabilities, each cult member faced a different fate. one had his limbs ripped off, one had his intestines slowly ripped from his mouth, but one I spared.

SEAN-"You are going to be mine."

CULT MEMBER-"No...p-p-please I have a family!"

SEAN-"Not for long."

CULT MEMBER-"plea-ACK!"

I released my darkness into him making him mine to control. I hid in his shadow and followed him home. He had a kid, a wife. I made him grab his son by the neck and strangle him until he died. He dropped the corpse onto the carpet. His wife screamed and ran, she tried to make it to the door but I used my power to close and lock the door, she was cornered. He grabbed a candlestick and proceded to beat her across the head seven times until she was unconsious. He grabbed her by the hair and dragged her up the stairs into the upstairs bathroom. He filled up the sink with scalding hot water and started drowning her. The heat of the water woke her from her slumber, she tried to scream but her screams were muffeled from being submerged underwater, She drowned. I leapt from his shadow and started talking to him personaly.

SEAN-"You saw and experienced all of what just heppened, I allowed that to happen."

CULT MEMBER-"W-why, why have you done this to me you sick bastard!"

SEAN-"Bloodlust."

I left the house and as I was leaving I heard a bang. I looked in the upstairs bathroom windowand saw nothing but blood covering the window and heard sirens in the distance. I walked home and knocked on my door assuming Aunt Jo came home, it was pretty late. She opened the door and gasped.

AUNT JO-"Wha- what happeded to you there! You were in there for 5 hours and now you come home and you're-"

SEAN-'IM WHAT AJ WHAT THE HELL DO YOU THINK I AM!"

AUNT JO-"A monster..."

I felt so angry at her, she was to die next. I forced some darkness into he to control her. I made her go the garage and pour gas on every surface in the garage. She cut the electrical line to the automatic garage door and locked the house door from the other side. She smokes so I had her smoke one last cigarette before she had to die. she dropped the cigarette when she was done setting the whole garage on fire. I relenquished control of her and waited outside listening to her scream and watching the light show.

The sun was comming up I had to stay in the shadows. I went into the convinence store and stole a long coat and a fedora to hide from the sun. I walked a few towns over and decided to control everyone to have as some friends even if it was just me. I went into every person in the town eccept one, it was some kid about my age he was talking to no one in his upstairs bedroom. I assumed he was a lunatic so I thought he would kill himself eventually, I controlled his parents.

SEAN-"Hey mom! Hey dad! Hey whats on TV! Oh news shit great im leaving."

I left the house but before I could get too far I heared "No... This cant be, I cant do it I just cant!". I decided to watch through the window. I watched him slit his moms throat and gut his father, without me even controling him! This was a good day! I left the property and on the way I swear I heared a helecopter. I left into the city to raise some hell. And thats just what I did.