I didn't have many friends growing up because they all thought that I was weird. I can't show emotions even if I tried. I have never smiled or laughed in my whole life. When I was born the doctor was surprised that I didn't cry and wouldn't move. I had many tests done but they couldn't find out what was wrong with me. I have wished for many year to smile at least once. I don't understand how people just effortlessly smile. I thought that if I was able to show more than a poker face that I would have a chance at having friends.