November 9, 2020 8:22pm:
I don't even know what to say. I've been getting a bunch of things taken care of but my mental illness starts holding me hostage.. It truly is a numb feeling.
Personally I'm getting tired of trying to have a relationship with someone. Especially what my last ex had put me through.. I'm not rich but I gave her my all..
Around this time of year I'm "naturally" depressed not having the one I loved most by my side. We had good times I'd say. Alas... it's over.
It's ok if you still love an ex... In my opinion but at the same time you got to move on. Which is obviously easier said than done.
I'm trying to be good.. That's all I want to be remembered by is a good person. I hope and have faith that I'll have plenty of treasures in Heaven.
I'm probably never going to be wealthy in this lifetime. This is me being realistic. Don't let me bog you down though.
Everything is going to be ok. Don't lose faith and hope.. And of course your charity towards others.