I remembered it clearly like it was yesterday. I was suffering from this disease called 'love.' My name is Mio Lockheart. My adoptive parents gave me the name. I was too young at that time to remember my real name. Lockheart's family is not regular. It is wealth and a noble family that has high prestige.
They have so many businesses all over the world, and they only have one son. Claude Lockheart is the only son of the Lockheart family. I never knew the reason why they adopted me, nor did they tell me the reason behind it. They were devoted parents. Wei and Jane Lockheart gave their attention to their youngest adoptive daughter as their original daughter.
Claude Lockheart was dissatisfied with this. I never knew what my brother thought in his mind, but after my rebirth, I knew the reason why he hated me. I stole all of his parent's affection and attention. I am not their true daughter, but they treated me very well. I lived all of my life like a little princess.
Claude realized that his parents cared about me the most than him. He started to hate me from the deep of his heart. The young me never knew this thing, because Claude never told me how dissatisfied he was with me. My adoptive parents knew that I fell in love with their only son, and they never rejected me, they also supported me to be with Claude. But Claude hated this idea the most, and he turned to be colder with me.
The young me always thought that it was okay, and I will work hard to make him fall in love with me. But it was not that simple. Love is for two people, not for one person. I didn't know that he won't ever love me in this lifetime. If I could describe my character, it would be a villainess in the novel. I ended with a miserable death.
Maybe I am only a villainess that could never get her happiness, but I forced myself to not give up no matter what. Claude is the male lead, of course, he will be with the female lead, and the female lead will never be me.
I remembered why I was in the hospital. It happened on June 25. It was my birthday party on that day. Wei and Jane announced that I am Claude's fiance without Claude's consent. Of course, he was so angry and uncontrollable. He rebelled against his parents.
I clearly remembered his words at that time as a bomb time in my heart. It was the first time I realized that my heart was trampled in front of everyone and became a living joke.
"You want me to marry this ugly girl?" He pointed his fingers at me disgustingly.
"In your dream, do you think I want to marry you? Ugh, if it is not for my parents, you won't ever have a chance to marry me this lifetime", his voice was colder each time he spoke.
I tried to decrease his anger, but he pushed me harshly.
"Don't touch me, you disgust me the most, who do you think you are? How dare you dream of climbing to my bed, huh? Such a disgusting girl like you will be alone forever", he looked disgustingly at me.
"You just want my money, right? you are just as an adopted girl you are not even a real daughter of my family, yeah you are not a daughter of Lockheart family", He said coldly
My heart skipped a bit, and I could barely stand firmly. My tears never stopped flowing through my cheek.
"Crying won't resolve your problem," he added with anger.
"Brother," I called him softly.
"Don't call me brother, there is no sister like you who wants to climb on her brother's bed, you are disgusting. I hope you never stepped your dirty body on my family," he said.
Wei couldn't control his anger and tried to slap him, but Jane and Mio tried hard to comfort him.
"Father," I said dejectedly.
"Look? My parents defended you so much, how could you not dare to force them to marry me, disgusting, I don't want you to show up in front me ever again", he said without looking back.
He never came back home after that day. I called him that night.
"Brother will you come back after I die?", I asked
"What trick did you use this time? Just die then," he said coldly and hung up the phone.
I walked indifferent towards the pool. The day he trampled on my heart, I lost everything, I lost my adoptive family, and I lost my first love. He suffered so much because of me, and he didn't get their affection. Maybe he was right that she shouldn't have to step on their life so he won't suffer so much.
It was my fault. If I didn't step in Claude's life, maybe he would be happy. If I didn't love him, I would stop bothering him every time I met him. All of this is my fault. My real family left me alone, and my adoptive brother hated me because I got all the affection that should be his.
I walked to the pool, and my body was colder each time I walked. Claude was right that I should die, then he will be happy. With my death, he will be glad, and I won't be there to bother him or never try to never give up on him.
My blood slowly dripped as I walked towards the pool. There was a fresh cut on my wrist that was not deep or shallow. There were traces of blood to the swimming pool. Everyone who saw it will be scared. But my mind was blank, and my heartbroken, and I wanted Claude to be happy without me in his life.
After arriving at the pool, I closed my eyes tightly and dropped myself into the pool. The water was cold, and there were blood marks in the water. The area where I fell starts to turn red and looks scary. It looked like a horror-thriller movie at that time.
In my mind, I knew it would be the end of my life, but I never knew that I survived. But it never made me happy. Without me knowing it was the beginning of my suffering and nightmare.
In the last life, after I recharged, Claude will chase me away to my original family. At that time, I knew that I didn't have a place in my adoptive family. After I attempted suicide, I didn't feel comfortable anymore around my family. I tried smiling as hard as I could to reassure them I will find happiness in my original family.
He didn't come out when I got out of his house, nor did I care about it. At that time, I felt we were already strangers that have nothing to do with each other. My life became difficult in my original family, I didn't feel familiar in a new situation, but it was bearable. At least I didn't have to meet up with my first love again. I was uncomfortable with my adoptive parents, and I felt we are just strangers even though we spent our time together.
My mind always said they are my parents, but my heart always said they are not your family at all. I had a psychology burden after that. I didn't always come to visit them, and I only visited when I made sure he was not at home.
I wanted to have a peaceful life after losing my first love and did my work seriously, but the female lead didn't want to let me go, and I ended miserably at the end. The female lead is a girl who will become Claude's future wife. I never knew if they were married or not because I already died at that time before I could hear their wedding.
I was relieved that I didn't hear it. Even though I stayed away from Claude, my heart still chose him like a mad dog.
He didn't know how he hurt me so much, and Claude didn't know how he trampled on my heart so much. He didn't know that I needed him the most and cried silently without his parents knowing about it. I always protected him from his parents. But now I knew that my feelings wouldn't be appreciated by him. I felt like a clown to him.
I never knew that I rebirth at the time I attempted suicide. There is a difference in my last life. All of my memory from before reincarnated was the same, but one thing was different. I didn't have my original family.
In this body memory, my original family already died in a plane crash, and I left alone in the orphanage when I was four years old.
It was not fair. I didn't have a place to run away, nor did I dare to stay in this family. But wherever I went, I won't be saved anymore. No one can help me survive this nightmare at all. Did I have to face this nightmare again?