I managed to stay awake till my baby was delivered, I had achieved my goal of keeping my baby safe but I couldn't hold on any longer ,my eyes started to black out, my my body was getting cold and I couldn't breathe properly, all I could hear was a doctor screaming "we are losing her!!!!!!!!!" "we are losing her!!!!!!!"come on bring the defibrillator, we are losing her I felt them put an oxygen mask around my nose to help me breath more, but that wasn't enough my heart beat stopped, with the help of defibrillator I was stable and I had a successful surgery. I woke up about two hours later with severe pain in my chest and abdomen, the first thing I asked for was my baby "mom is my baby safe?" " yesterday she safe and she's beautiful just like you "mother Diana said to me. " now tell me dear how do you feel?, oh God thought I almost lost you, thank God you are safe" she said with tears in her eyes I could feel her pain she had grownvery of me during this past few months ,it would have been hard for her if I had died I hugged her and I whispered into her ears , "I'm never leaving you ,I will never leave you alone Mother ." within eight months the love we felt for each other was very admirable I couldn't believe it myself maybe it was because we were from the same situation, because we understand each other and we knew how it felt to lose someone you loved. she sat by my side on the bed and said, " I respect this journey you've taken is a very long one, I'm not saying it's going to be easy, it's not going to be easy but remember that every step that you take along on this journey I'll be right there, to support and protect you ,correct all your mistakes to make you feel proud of yourself I didn't have the chance to raise up my daughter but I hope you allow me to raise you and your daughter as well" of course mother Diana ,and of course should have every right on my daughter and I . In this 8 months you've proven to be a better Mother than my biological one and there is no better grandmother for my daughter than you ,you are a blessing ,a blessing I can never thank God enough for." " well stop now you're making me blush" she said as she cleaned tears in her eyes. " so what name are you are giving my granddaughter then??" she asked" I'm going to name her Renee, Renee sowah after your daughter, with your permission though?" she said nothing she just sat there and began to cry" I'm sorry if you don't like it I can change the name .I didn't mean to remind you of your pain" then she said to me "no.. no I'm just happy, thank you thank you very much for once again giving me joy" she took her in her arms and said "welcome to our small family baby Renee, I promise to love you with all my heart"
I spent another week in the hospital before I was released to go home .the police still didn't have any information on my shooter that fateful night but that wasn't my priority at this point ,my priority was to make a good life for me and Renee, I once again had a purpose in life , something I had to fight for and it was my baby , I wanted her to have the best in life for her not to feel the pain I've been through for her not to ever face a betrayal of her mother, I wanted her to be proud of who she was ,I didn't want her to miss the fact that she she didn't have a father. I want to be her everything. with the help of mother Diana I was able to open a small tailoring shop right in the heart of East legon it wasn't easy at first but slowly over the years my business expanded and I had big clients coming in. all I hoped for was for my desgins to be recognised by fashion house.
it's been three years since my terrible experience and Rene is much older now, I mean she's three , very bright and intelligent ,Mother Diana becomes Google search box when Renee start asking questions, my God if this was how I was in my childhood then I think I know the reason why my stepdad hated me.I was so proud of her, she expressed what she felt ,and said what she thought was right ,she asked for explanation when she doesn't understand something and she was very respectful. I now know it , Renee was the missing piece of the puzzle, she brought liveliness to the house I could see Mother Diana smiling all the time. it was amazing the way this little girl was able to turn our situation all over. within these three years I tried to forget my past but I couldn't ,I couldn't just leave with the fact the person who murdered my sister was still out there enjoying his life. I try to forget the Jerk who impregnated me but I couldn't because the more Renee grew up the more she look like her father she had his eyes and with her being around it was just impossible to forget him. she was my joy but at the same time she reminded me of my painful past . A past I have been trying to run from all these years.
"Granny why is it that my mum always cries in the night?" " what are you saying my dear" " Granny I hear mama crying every night she doesn't sleep, is she sick?" " no my dear your mum is just or might be having nightmares she will be fine, don't worry yourself too much ok." " mums too have nightmare??" " yes my dear we all have nightmares so don't worry yourself ok" I walk in from work only to see granny and her beloved granddaughter having a beautiful conversation" hey Grandma and granddaughter what are you talking about??" Renee comes running to me I pick her up and hug her" mama is so good you are home mama I missed you" " Awww.... sweetheart well not more than I missed you, have you done your homework?" " yes mama I did it with the speed of lightning" "NOW that's my gir, go upstairs and wash up and come down for a beautiful surprise ok" " ok Mama I love you" Renee runs upstairs I turned to and look at mother Diana but she looked very troubled
" hi Mum how are you? you look troubled." " why shouldn't I ,what's going on with you lissy Renee tells me you don't sleep at night she says she hears you cry a lot .what is wrong? is There Something I Should Know About?" " I break down in tears" I can't forget him, I can't I've tried so many times but I just can't take him out of my head, I see those pictures in my dreams every night and as the days goes by I don't wonder what I'm going to tell Renee if she asked me about her father" "my dear you're going through all this and you didn't even bother to tell me?" " Mum you are already stressed out, I don't want to stress you out anymore ,you need your rest, you have to take care of your blood pressure and all of these things will just keep rising it that's why I didn't tell you" " but dear you know I'm always here for you" and " yes ma'am I know you're always here for us but we also have to take care of you don't you think, please it's time for you to go to bed, don't think too much of this okay, I'm okay... I'm fine" I wasn't okay but I didn't have to let her see it that way too, she was stressed out enough and she needs to rest. it's high time I also took care of her . she's done so much for us and she deserves to be taken care of , I'm not going to bother her with my problems anymore.
" Annalise who ordered these drugs". " doctor is James who ordered the drugs " " just like I expected I don't even have professionals working with me at this place ,doesn't he know that this drug is low rate and I don't have this type of drugs pescribed to my patience ? get him at my desk now!!!" Annalise runs through the hallways and went to the reception to call James " James today you are dead who told you to order those drugs, you have been called by the doctor in his office ,just pray that you're not fired because he really angry " James walk through the office door "Tom I heard that you are looking for me" yes I did now,James tell me what the hell are these??" " These are drugs." of course I know there are drugs but do you see me prescribing this type of drugs to my patients in this Hospital,? do I have to do everything by myself you know what? am tired and I don't want to see your face ever in this hospital again, get your ass out of my office" James murmured to himself" I will be glad to do so" excuse me what did you say Tom asked him" well I said, I will be glad to get out of your office, you know what I'm sick not only me we are all sick and tired of this rude and arrogant attitude of yours, what do you think of yourself I'm not a nurse, I'm a doctor with the same degree as you but you treat me like dirt now I know why you're all alone, you don't have anyone in your life because you are such a jackass an arrogant jerk who will never be happy."
" stop it James before..... I" "before you what why are you putting up that act as Mr Nice Guy, come on.... on come on Tom just hit me, why did you stop? I want you to hit me, maybe that might turn your mind upside down, ever since you came from that trip you've been worse than before. what happened in Las Vegas? what turned you into this? you feel as if you are are on top of the you were a jerk before you went to Las Vegas but you've become a moron you talk to your parents anyhow. what actually happened? look around everyone is afraid of you is that what you want? " now there you go talking like her.... Hmmmmm....." "Tom are you okay?". " ..... Yes am fine is just that I can't stop thinking about that night, the words she said and what I said to her,.... I just can't forget her beautiful face, the tears in her eyes when I said those mean words to her, the funny part is I don't even know her name. " he laughs to himself.