There was once an existance. Let´s call it god. He just existed. He does not remember where he came from or who he was in general. He was always there. And he will always be there. That was the only thing that was surtain. There was nothing around him. And he did not mind it as it was always like this. His being was the only certainty in this space of his. But as he was existing he could not stop from questioning himself.
Where am I?
Who am I?
Do I exist?
What time is it?
Why do I exist?
Where did I came from?
What is my purpose?
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And what are those questions supposed to tell me? And just why am I struggling to find them so desperately? As if they were pulling on my very own soul.
The only thing that i know is that I can not find an answer to any of those questions.
That is why I decided to just create those answers myself!!!
I do not know where I am so I will create space that is so large that I will never have to ask myself again where I am.
As there is space I will give myself a body and a name. So that I will never have to ask myself who I am and if I really exist.
A head to hear, see, smell and taste. Two legs to move from one space to another. Two arms to grab things and a body to combine them. This will be sufficient for the moment.
I do not want to stay in the same place at all times. It just reminds me of the past where I was imprisoned in the nothingness. I want to move forward! That´s why I will create time. So that I will know that I am moving forward even when I am standing still.
Unfortunately I still do not know where I came from but I decided that I do not care enought right now because I already decided that I will only move forward from now on and that I will not look backwards.
I moved though space in order to find a purpose for my existance. I created galaxies full of suns, planets, moons and black holes and just everything hoping that it would bring me fulfilment. But I still feel like something is missing but I just did not know what. So I decided to just ignor it as I could not do anything against this feeling anyway.
As time goes by this feeling of mine became stronger and stronger. And this is a good thing for me because It means that I am beginning to grasp what the problem is. And you need to first know what the problem is exactly in order to solve it. In the end the problem manifested itself in the form of loneliness. I was always alone and did not know anything else. I took it for gratend but now I realise that I do not have to be the only one existence in this wide world that I created. I only know myself so I will create eleven identicall copies of myself and give everyone powers equal to mine so that we will be equals.
It was the first time in a long time that I felt fulfilled again. But it kinda scared me as well because it reminded me of the very beginning of my conquest of finding questions. I begane my journey because I wanted to know everything. But as my clones are as strong as I am, I am unable to grasp them. And even more questions came to my mind. Like what are they thinking? Are they uncomfortable with this situation? I just did not know!!! But I decided to just ignor it. And this was the biggest mistake of my life.
Because my clones developed new emotions. They were thinking. If the original created us on a wimp. Can he erase us just as easily? We do not want to be erased like a used toy!!!
They were scared and this gave birth to new emotions. Fear and anger.
Why is he the original!
Why does he to decide evertything!
Everything would be better without him here!
Not everybode had those feelings but as time goes by this feeling begane to invest the other clones as well. When the original spent less and less time with them. This feeling only went stronger. At the time the clones realised that they were not the only clone with that feeling they begane to speak about it and to look for solutions for this particular problem. At the beginning they just wanted to speak with the original. But they knew that the originall begane to spent less time with them and that this could just give him the finishing push to erase them. They saw it a lot in the past. He created just as many different planets as he erased. When every clone came together to discuss the problem they knew what they had to do. They would erase the original and live without fear for the first time in their life!
The very next day the battle against the original took place. He did not know anything about it as he never experienced fear till now. He knew that the clones begane to be unsatisfied and that they begane to move away from him but he just though that they felt like it because they failed to find solutions to some questions of theirs and that some distance could be good for them so that they could find themself. Just like he failed many times before and even now. He knows a lot but he did not know that his clones could develope different from himself. But he was not angry. He was sad that it had to come this way. But even in his last second he was happy as we was able to experience feeling that he never felt before and normally would never be able to feel. Anger and fear at the beginning happiness and sadness at the end. He never expacted to die at the hands of his very own clones that he in fact cherished very much. He just did not know how to show it openly. If his clones had just invested a little bit of time in order to understand him even a little bit better instead of seeing him as some kind of higher being. That way all of this could have been prevented.
But he desided to not look backwards as it would be against his beliefs and would not be off any help anyway. Resistance was also not an option as every single clone was just as stong as he was. In fact even one would be enough to kill him.
That´s why he dicided to just take their attacks head on and to die with dignity. So he took one step forward and to see this as an opportunity in order to find out the only question that he could not find any answer to. Maybe I will be able to finally find out where I came frome this way.