"W-whenever I see a child in suffering, in pain, in tears- it reminds of my baby….. He died because of m-me… I was being an irresponsible, heartless mother who left her sick child into the care of the so-called doctors believing he was in safe hands and went to s-sit for the viva in front of the medical council to save my career."
Tears began to spill from her helpless eyes, rolling down her cheeks to Wang Shi's hands.
Suyin was not an emotional person, but the only thing that breaks her had been the memory of her baby. She still blames herself.
"Maybe if I had not left him, he would have been alive. Safe. Happy. By my side. B-But I—"
"Shh…. Don't say… Let's just drop it here." Her grief surged with every breath, reaching higher with every spoken word, not even soothing with long intakes of breaths. This was the second time he had seen her sobbing.
