(bao bai journal) after the night Mateo and I had I felt like I was happy for once in a lifetime I was happy Mateo is my light and joy this will be a good thing.

he is my firework my misunderstanding as to why life is so bad but he makes it so good I just. I don't know what ill do with him . who knows maybe he feels the same way hopefully he does. the room in my heart that once felt dark and void has found its silver lining.

(Mateo Journal)

after the night we had. I just don't know what ill do with bao bai she just makes the bad place a lot better when I'm with her my heart tends to beat faster and faster until I catch up with hers it's like I'm not sad anymore or im not scared of what can and cannot happen I feel happy. I'm drowning in my feelings and can't swim her loves filling my lungs like water

not knowing when I can breathe. I catch my breath finally but not only have I caught that I've caught her love.