When i was 7.....

My life was very unique...

It was time of noon I was riding my bicycle in the new apartment we were shifting ourselves in the new apartment.

My parents always have a hard time together still they didn't separated from each other the most bad effect it caused is on my life including my mental health which was full with fear, yes there is no better word.

Fear, it's a strong word to use as for a kid who is 7 year old but the reality is that child suffer the most between the fights and the unintentional tension and fear it sets into the child no one can explain it better than a child who suffered it.

Well, I was riding a bike. little bit in fear of my mom and dad start clashing again.

I could sense it in air, tension was real I heard my mom speaking.

Mom: "beta ghar ke andar cycle mt chala gir jaega".

I love both of my parents very much.

Mom: again stop riding the bike inside you might will fall the floor is slippery.

Me: its ok mom I am not going to fall(continue riding).

Dad: what are doing go and help your sister and mother in shifting

Me: ok dad but after I finish riding the bike.

After some time, both of them started fighting on something(I don't remember exactly what)

Dad: "left after fighting with mom".

Sky was of orange color it was time of summer I kept on riding my bike and keeping a smile on my face and trying to make my mom and sister

And to make them feel like nothing happened.

Me: inside-"crying like hell and thinking why the hell god made my family so imperfect why cant it be a perfect family where everyone will be happy".

Me: also thinking that I will keep smiling just to make my mom and sister happy.

After few hours

Dad: "enters the house in anger goes to watch tv"

Mom: sitting in kitchen(you stop riding your bike in the house you will fall)

Suddenly everyone heared loud noise.

'tdhhhhh'

Me : falling from the bike, my head actually hit the tables corner.

Last sound I heard of something cracking

'Clamp'

Me : shit what happened I don't want this (meanwhile fainting).

Dad: left the room like nothing happened.

My head was bleeding like hell, I got a whole in my head

Mom: getting scared, shit what happened.

What should I do.

Omg!(panicking)

Mom: grabbed a "fitkary" alum and placed it on the open wound.

I still remember her not getting up from one place for like nearly 7-8 hours dad was still not home.

Finally it was like 1am entering the house "drunk" my wound was not nearly as bad as it was before but I was still fainted.

Eventually I got healed in few days

By this small story what I was trying you to convey the few characters

The daily clashes is a very normal thing for two peoples sometimes it happens but when it happens daily it effects children a lot.

Here, you need to understand the maturity of armature young boy who knew he cannot get upset in that particular situation.

Within this boy lies the ideal parent.

Parents can provide an ideal environment for their child but until and unless they did give them peaceful mental surrounding.

The child will never come up with its full potential and can never fully live its childhood fully, like I said I grew up mentally at a very young age.