No one ever got his love. He never loved his biological sons from his legal wife, so how came he liked someone like me who had nothing to do with him. I never knew what it felt like to be loved by a father, and for the rest of my life, I wouldn't feel it at all. I used to hope much until it broke my heart. Sometimes hopes didn't bring you happiness and only made your life in suffering even more. Don't ever hope too much if you aren't ready to feel the pain because it is the soreness that no one can't bear, and the soreness is beyond your imagination.
I continued my life as hard as I could to survive this hell alone. I became a police officer after I turned into an adult. I didn't want to think about my father that never saw me as his son in his life. I would only hope that my mother was happy wherever she was right now. As her son, I could only live a happy life all my own. It was unworthy thinking about unnecessary stuff time by time.
