The village chief, Mauve, Nasha, and Keiha all left the room. I was standing alone in front of the noble. My legs were shaking so much that I could fall over at any moment.
「All of you, guard the surroundings of the building. I'll ring the bell once its over.」
「Yes.」
Then, the soldiers left the room one after another. The noble and I were finally the only ones remaining in the room.
Other than Rafen, I'd never been alone together with a boy. I was scared…
「What's the matter? Didn't you come to sleep with me?」
「Y, yes…」
I took a step forward, and almost fell over. My legs were shaky, chest painful as though it was being squeezed, and tears almost spilling out.
Not good! I mustn't cry here now, or else it would trouble everyone. They might even do something to Rafen.
「Let me see your eyes.」
「Eh?」
As I was told not to move, I stood still. Then, the noble's face came closer. Thinking that he would kiss me, I immediately turned my face away.
「Hey, don't turn away.」
He caught my head, and looked into my eyes. I also looked at his, and I couldnt read any emotions from his silver colored eyes.
「Blue hair, blue eyes…」
For an instant, his eyes laughed as though a cat finding its prey.
My body trembled. What was thing feeling?
「It would've been perfect if she's wearing Kohali's dress, but… I didn't bring it here.」
He was mumbling something. I wanted to escape right now, but I couldn't run away.
He was really scary. I'd vaguely felt a power when I was near Uncle Beard, but this noble's magic power felt much denser.
「Well, its fine. Let's just enjoy it as it is. Come here, Fa—no, what's your name?」
「S, Sokola. 」
There was no way I could escape. I gave him my name.
The noble quickly moved closer and hugged me.
No!
I didn't like this feeling on my body as it wasn't coming from Rafen's hands.
「Ah...」
His hands wrapped around my back and waist and pulled my body closer. I already had an idea what was going to happen next. After all, I'd already experienced it five times, and I thought the sixth time would also be with Rafen.
chu.
A completely different feeling was sent from my lips, and It gave me goosebumps.
No! No! No!
「This is good.」
He placed power on his arm that was once again wrapped around my back.
chu
The seventh kiss didn't end so simple.
「Mmhmukuu!?」
Something slimy was moving, tracing my lips. That slimy thing pried open my mouth, entered inside and touched my tongue.
「mnhhhmuuuー?!」
I tried to step back, but I couldn't move because his hands were holding my head. He continuously violated my mouth as though he was savoring it before releasing my lips. This was something I'd never experienced with Rafen.
Disgusting.
「This time, you stick your tongue out and slide it inside my mouth.」
「….. Yes…」
I couldn't resist him.
I matched our lips and stuck out my tongue into his mouth. I felt so disgusted, sad, and unwilling. But I didn't have any choice. When my tongue reached inside his mouth, it was sucked and pulled deeper inside.
「nnhmuu…mmwah…mmwah」
Sounds of kissing echoed inside the room, and every time those sounds stabbed my ears, I would become aware of what I was doing, and I'd feel very sad. Why did I have to do this thing? Not good, I would only cry if I were to think about it.
「—pfaa...nmm!」
He released my lips for a moment before sucking it again. As my body lost its strength due to fear, I leaned my body on him, and he hugged me. At his mercy, we kissed, tongues entwined against each other, and exchanged saliva.
「nnnhmwah...! nnma...mwah….mwah...haaann...ahhn...」
How many times had it been? I'd been kissed so much that I didn't bother counting it anymore. Unlike the gentle touch of Rafen's lips, he was kissing with his tongue. Even though it felt disgusting, I hated myself for becoming used to this feeling. It felt like he was spitting at the memories I had with Rafen.
My head and hair were gently caressed. The way he touched somehow felt like it was filled with tender love. I could feel a warmth, as though he was caressing an irreplaceable and important person. I closed my eyes while responding to his kiss. I had an image as though the person kissing me was Rafen. If he was really this person, there wouldn't be anything more pleasant.
「Raー…fen.」
My mind had started to become hazy, and I was starting to forget who was the person kissing me. I felt like it would be much better if I didn't know who was kissing me. When I noticed it, I was already facing up on the bed while being kissed.
「I'm going to remove your clothes.」
「Ah...ah.」
He touched my dress without waiting for my reply. I felt frightened every time a string was unfastened, and it felt as though my heart was being revealed. My body, which I hadn't shown even to Rafen, would be seen by an unfamiliar man. When there were only a few clothes covering my body, he kissed my forehead. Confirming that my attention was focused on my forehead, with smooth coordination, he took off the clothing covering my lower body. My lower body had become completely bare.
「Ah! No!!」
I reflexively raised my upper body and covered my private area. Then the noble moved around my back and hugged me from behind. I almost let out a scream when he lightly bit on my ear. I felt a chill on the side of my body where he bit my ear, and I trembled.
「N, Noo!!! Down there, no!」
His other hand slid into my private area, and his fingers brushed the place which I hadn't even shown anyone. With his finger on my private area, he went around from my shoulder and kissed me.
「Nnnnー!」
His hand gradually went deeper and slid into my private area. There was a ticklish feeling, and I felt disgusted by it, as though there was a lump of something sickening turning around between my chest and stomach.
「Hm? This is…」
My legs were spread out wide, and my part down there which didn't have any hair entered his sight. I never wanted someone else to see it. I'd shaved it myself and vowed in my heart to show it only to Rafen during our wedding night. I knew that he was staring at my bare area down there with great interest. Even though Rafen was the only person allowed to see it… I felt embarrassed, sad, and terrified.
「I see it.」
Please don't say it.
I wanted to cover it, but he was strong, and I couldn't close my legs.
「Ah?!」
His fingers touched my sensitive part. A painful and pleasant indescribable feeling was sent to my head.
He sucked on my neck a couple of times while playing with me down there. And every time he did, I was starting to feel more pleasure than disgust. I remembered the time when I comforted myself while thinking of Rafen.
No!
I didn't want to feel it with a man other than Rafen.
「You've gotten quite wet.」
Contrary to my thoughts, my body continued leaking out indecent fluids.
Without bothering to hide his joyful look, the noble whispered to my ears.
「This should be fine.」
Then, he quickly moved from behind and went in front of me. His penis, which had become unbelievably larger, entered my sight.
「Ehhh!?」
His penis looked completely different from the ones I'd seen when I took care of our neighbor's baby and the the time when I wiped the body of my younger brother. This one didn't have a hint of cuteness—it was a monstrous rod. Noble's would use this to make a baby possessing magic power, so perhaps they turn into such horrifying shape.
Terrifying.
I didn't want to have intercourse with this horrifying rod which looked completely different to a commoner's. If my body were to get played by this thing, I felt like I would be ruined beyond recovery.
And if that happened, Rafen and I wouldn't be able to…
「Behave and look here.」
「Eeek!」
My raised upper body had been pushed down, and my body was facing up once again, looking towards the ceiling. The noble held both of my legs and raised my knees up.
「Please, please dont look!」
「Is that something you'd say after becoming this soaked?」
I knew that my face had turned bright red. I tried closing my legs, but I really wasn't a match against a noble who had a magic power. His gaze turned to my part down there, he was looking as though he was licking around it.
Immediately after, I felt something wrong with me down there.The feeling was strange, as though something different from his finger was touching it.
The next instant, along with slight pain, he pressed his body down on me.
「Gyuu?!」
Our lips touched each other, and my body was pushed on the bed as he pressed his body on top of me. There was a slightly uncomfortable feeling down there, and I immediately realized what he'd done. I completely understood.
Rafen, I'm sorry…
I couldn't become an adult together with you.
My tears fell down continuously without stopping, entering inside my ears.
「I'll start moving.」
I continued enduring his actions while he was holding my head. The poor bed in the room creaked, and his stimulated breath reached my ears. Each time he thrust his monstrous rod deep inside, I felt a tight feeling and my breathing became difficult.
「Mmn! Ahhh! Nnn!」
My body felt slightly better when I let out a sound.
I felt pain every time he pushed my body intensely, so I moved my arms around his back, thinking that perhaps it would restrain his movement. I felt slightly better, as only his lower body was moving now.
「Ahhnn!」
He thrust harder than before. I could tell from his breathing that he was very aroused. Wrapping my hands around his back seemed to have made him more aroused. A smile on his face, the noble quickened his movements. Even though it was to escape from the painful feeling, I was disgusted with myself for clinging to a man other than Rafen.
「Ku! That's good! Haa, haa.」
His voice grew louder, movement slower, and then he showed me a smile. A surprisingly gentle smile.
His eyes looked as though he was looking at the person he loved.
His eyes looked as though he was looking at someone important to him.
….. His eyes looked as though he was looking at someone else, through me.
「I, I'm going to cum…!」
Then, the noble thrust so hard, and he pushed his head against my neck.
「Gu! Cumming!」
From his trembling back and irregular heavy breathing, I realized he was pouring his seed inside me. He was thrusting so hard and deep as though he wanted to let it reach the deepest part of my body.
While being embraced, I heard him call a name. It wasn't my name, but someone else's. I'd been curious from the start. The noble was not thinking of me at all while we were having intercourse, but a person who resembled me. My appearance might be similar to that person.
I loved Rafen, who always looked at me.
I'd been embraced as someone else's substitute, and I was nothing more than a woman's body.
That made me feel very sad, but also a little relieved.
The only one who ever looked at me, was really just Rafen.