I can't stand the torture. The more I think about how much I'm betraying Tess, the more guilty I feel. It makes me feel obligated to tell her what Alex did. What we did. What... I did.
Finally after a few weeks I came out of my room and went into the kitchen.
Tess looks at me, smiling, and says "There's pizza in the oven for you. And I'm glad you finally came out of your room."
I look at her, gave her a smile, grabbed pizza, and went back to my room. I didn't lock the door this time. I just left it wide open.
A few moments later Tess came into my room and closed the door behind her.
I looked at her confused and before I could ask what she was doing she said "We need to talk."
I said "What's there to talk about?" she looks at me with a serious but happy face and says "I'm pregnant!"
I look at her, shocked, and asked "For how long?" She says with a big smile "Going on 4 weeks now."
I asked her if Alex knows about it. She tells me that she hasn't told him yet and that she wants to surprise him tomorrow.
I tell her that I'm happy for her and she leaves with a big smile on her face.
How could I be so stupid. How could I let this happen. I should've been more careful.
I run to the bathroom and lock the door. I was feeling nauseous again. I've been feeling sick lately and I didn't know why until now.
I've had morning sickness ever since that night a few weeks ago. I didn't realize it until Tess told me she was pregnant.
This is a DISASTER. How could I be so blind. How could I have not realized that I might be PREGNANT and ALEX is the FATHER.