When looking back at my memories, I always say it could be worse, when I say this, people always tell me how could it be worse? it is okay for you to be upset. But when they tell me this it has the opposite effect, I feel that they are telling me to be weak and give up, let the past mess up my present, but I don't want to. I have it blocked off and I don't want to open those memories again. so when I think about it, at least I'm alive and have a roof over my head, what more could I ask for? so why should i stop acting strong? I've lasted this long why not last longer, life will never be easy, and if it is there is something wrong. you have to be strong or you won't last so I won't cry, I won't complain and I won't fight. Because you know what? at least I'm alive. and if I do cry ill just say it could be worse.