Im tired of being happy, im tired of eating and tired of sleeping, I wish I had someone to lean on, but I let them go like birds who flew away from a cage. They're free, I won't bother them with my problems I'll be the storm that disappears after the sun shows up. im tired of having toy like others, even when I try it's not good enough, and the reason lies ahead, in two new paths. should I go to the left side or should I stay on the right? honestly im fine being alone. It's just hard not to cry. sometimes I cry for no reason, maybe it's because im pitiful or I just don't want to admit defeat and let my emotions take over. theirs so many things I want to try and figure out in my mind but I just can't figure it out! are they tired of me? they deserve more than this. Im always troubling people, Im better being alone. It's less of an effort than having friends. And they say im only an arm reach away but to me, it feels like its miles away, I know they have more important things to take care of so dont tell me that. It makes me feel worse. it makes me feel like your forcing yourself.