She wasn't sure why these always happen to her she is fed up.
'Why? Why me? Why every thing is happening to me? What did I do wrong to deserve it? Am I not allowed to be happy? Is it too much to wish to be happy? To be free? Can anyone answer me?'
However, she knows there is no point in voicing out her thoughts, as the answers to these questions are predetermined by her parents, and it would always be the same.
'Oh just stop being dramatic. You have a perfect life others would love to be in your shoes. You are just being ungrateful for even thinking like this. These thoughts are there because you have bad friends. Just remember friendship is not real they are just passer-by's, you don't need them. We are your parents we know the best, because we want the best for you. No parent will wish to harm their child. Nothing bad will happen because you listen to us, because it is for your own good. Stop hanging out with those people you call friends they are just Jealous, so they will ruin you'.
She want to argue back every time when they come at her with these kind of remarks. She want to tell them that they do not know her, and certainly not what is best for her, because nobody knows. How could anybody know when she herself doesn't know. And how can she when she wasn't even allowed to make any decision regarding her own life. What she wore, what she study, where she go, what she eat, what she buyes everything needed permission from her parents. Because they know the best.
She had classmates but never friends, she knows she was powerless and that she was trapped and didn't know how to be free. Regardless, she wanted the exact opposite. She wanted to be powerful, she wanted to be free, and she wanted more than classmates she wanted no needed friends or at least one friend. And that exactly was the problem. She didn't know how, because she wasn't confident. How could she when all her life she been trained to follow rules and obey her parents, even though she is not happy.
But does anybody cared? The answer is 'NO'. It wasn't even a question but a fact. No one cared.