(Warning! This short contains swearing, self-harm, and verbal and physical abuse!)
I hate this world. Everyday is the same as the one before. I get up, my dad yells at me, go to school, go home, sleep, repeat. Nowadays, I don't even know why he's yelling. But I do know two things. One, I somehow disappointed him. Two, he is drunk off his ass. I'd talk about my mom but I don't remember much about her. She died when I was young. Ever since, dad and I took it hard. After a few weeks, I got into an accident and ended up with amnesia.
School is no better. I'm not being picked on but I also don't have any friends. Everyone I tried to make my friend, dies within ten days. I even told everyone in the school. So, I kinda did this to myself. Today is no different. I'm just sitting in class watching the time tick by. "Hey, I'm Alex!" I look to my left and see a cute girl talking to me. "Hi, I'm Max. I killed everyone who tried to be my friend. Leave me alone."
That was a lie. I don't even know how they died. I just say that so people like her leave me alone. This time however it didn't work. "Well, I'll be fine then!" She smiled. "Oh, yeah? And why is that?" "Because I don't come over here to be your friend. I came over because I want to go out with you." She said fidgeting. It took me a few minutes. "What?" She then took a deep breath, "Please, go out with me?"
I didn't understand, but I was curious. "Alright then, kiss me." Without a second thought, she pulled my face closer to hers and kissed me. I stumbled back. "WHAT THE FUCK! WHY DID YOU?" "Because you asked me to!" At that moment, I understand she was serious. So, we began dating. She has everything I don't. A loving and supportive family, healthy meals, a big house, even pets! Her parents love me. The more time I spend with her, the more I hate myself.
You see after the accident, I also had problems with my self worth. Alex has asked to meet my family but I always refuse. Alex never pushes me. She is the best thing in my life. So, when she found out about my problem, she insisted I seeked out help. I did, I even began taking the pills they prescribed. After a few months, Alex decided to visit a cousin in Paris. She told me it was only a week trip. I knew she had to live her life. So, I sent her off with a smile.
Even in the summer heat, I wear a long sleeve. After all, I can't tell my girlfriend nothing helps. My dad and I got into a fight again. It ended with me storming off as my father said, "NO ONE WILL EVER LOVE!" That was the final straw, I wrote two letters. One for my dad and one for Alex. I dropped off the one for Alex at her house. I hope the day Alex reads it she'll forgive me for being selfish.
"My dearest Alex,
You were the best thing to ever happen to me. My father had beat me and yelled at me for the last time. I tried to keep moving forward with you. But, in the end, I can't take this. I found my father's rope. And I wish you were here to calm me down. I hope you can keep moving forward. I understand if you ended up hating me for this. You can't imagine how happy you made me. But everyday I'm fighting and losing. I did as you asked but, no one could truly help me. Do know I never blamed you for anything. I'm happy you came up to me that day. If not for that, I would have died that day. Please, understand! I never meant to hurt you like this. I'm sorry for not being strong enough. Good bye.
-Max"
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"Dear Max,
I know you will never be able to read this. But I can hope. I know you did your best for me. And that is why I loved you. To me, every minute I got with you was precious. I don't hate you and I never will. I know if I was with you, you'd be my husband. But, you aren't dead yet. Your body might have stopped but you live on in us. I was looking forward to seeing you once I got back. I wanted to tell you. I'm pregnant with your baby. It's healthy and I'm going to keep it. My parents are going to help me through this. I know if you were here, you'd fight even harder for our baby. Hey, Max. You were all I needed. You were perfect in every way. I love you and I'll live on in you stead. Good bye.
-Alex"
The End