For many years, Mo Xigu had only gotten arrogant because of the Mo Corporation behind him. Su Xiqin sometimes wondered how Mo Xigu would behave if there wasn't the Mo Corporation; if he would still have the chance to look down at her and bring along all kinds of women in front of her to show off.
Now that she saw Mo Xigu like this, she actually felt a little bit overjoyed to watch, but she knew that she shouldn't kick a person while they were down.
She looked at Mo Xigu and said, "Mo Xigu, all these years we've hated each other, and there's nothing else left between us. So in my eyes, I wouldn't curry favor with you if you were rich and I wouldn't be happy if you became poor. What I'm trying to say is that no matter what you do, I'm not going to change my mind about the divorce."
Her tone was flat and soft, and her eyes were cold like dead water.
Having seen Su Xiqin like this, Mo Xigu leaped up from the sofa and stumbled as he ran towards her, grabbing her with his hands. "You've said it before that you'll only love me. But it has only been five years; five years and you want a divorce."
Su Xiqin recalled some beautiful memories of the past having heard their past vows, but then their depressed marriage life followed. Suddenly, she felt bitter all over from the bottom of her heart as it rushed towards her eyes and turned into mist.
"Then do you remember what you said to me before I said that?" She wanted to calm down and tried to respond with a calm mind, but she couldn't. The mist in her turned into teardrops as they rushed out of her eyes, slid down her face, and disappeared into her hair.
Mo Xigu suddenly let go of her, with his red eyes raised slightly and full of surprise. The surprise in his eyes told Su Xiqin that he did not remember.
He remembered the vows she had said but not what he had said to her.
He was bent on revenge to get her heart, so how could he remember the sweet words he made up?
Su Xiqin closed her eyes in pain while tears flowed from the corners of her eyes in silence. She didn't want to talk any further as she spoke in an indifferent tone.
"It's not a surprise that you don't remember; why bother remembering the vow if it wasn't made for the person in your heart? Mo Xigu, let's get the divorce! It's better for everyone. I promise you to wait until this is over before proceeding with our divorce in a low-key manner; it will not cause any damage to your reputation."
Mo Xigu gripped Su Xiqin's hand tightly and placed it on his lips as he murmured, "Xiqin, I won't get this divorce; give me one more chance!"
"Won't get this divorce? Is it because you still want to torture me? Or are you going to torture yourself?"
After listening to Su Xiqin's words, Mo Xigu's eyes burned. "No, not anymore, let's begin again from the start."
If she had heard these words before she made up her mind to divorce, she would have readily agreed.
However, her heart full of hope had slowly turned into a wild grassland, and he mercilessly set a fire to burn it into ashes.
This thought had been completely exterminated. Her hope was gone forever, and she was tired. Now he wanted to start over again when she had zero hope? What was this drunken nonsense?
She looked at him steadily, with eyes that looked like she was trying to see through him. She paused for a long moment and asked, "What do you have to start your life over? Love? Or hate? Or is it the pressure from the Mo Corporation's survival?"
Her sudden sharpness didn't give Mo Xigu a chance to escape. He took her hand to his forehead and murmured, "If I say that during these years, you've grown into my heart, would you believe it?"
Since he lowered his head slightly, Su Xiqin couldn't see his expression, so she couldn't tell in what state of mind he said such words. If what he said was real, then how could he try in every way to hurt her? However, whatever the reason was, she was tired and had no desire to go on.
She looked at him steadily with the determination she never had before. "I believe it because it's like a habit; you've gotten used to having someone around you who would come and go in whichever way you wanted. This habit is like an addiction, and when the person suddenly disappears, the withdrawal effect kicks in, and it's hard to let go."
Su Xiqin's sharp analysis made Mo Xigu look up all of a sudden.
"No, you're half right. I'm used to you, but this habit is not an addiction but a cure."
Su Xiqin looked into his bloodshot eyes and laughed coldly. "Cure? Your idea is quite unique. I cannot agree. Our ideas go separate ways, and if we continue to live, we will only be torturing each other longer."
"I'll change, Xiqin. I'll change." Mo Xigu suddenly shifted his mind.
Su Xiqin never imagined that these words would come out of Mo Xigu's mouth. Besides being surprised, she was more skeptical as she wondered if it was because he was drunk.
"You drank too much, and you're starting to talk gibberish. Go home and get some rest. We'll talk about it tomorrow."
Tonight's Mo Xigu was unpredictable.
"You know that saying: one speaks the truth when they're drunk," said Mo Xigu without letting go of her hand.
"If you want to start over, can you accept my infidelity and Jintian's existence?"
Su Xiqin brought up the taboo that he never wanted to touch.
Mo Xigu looked at her, and suddenly there was no sound. Then, he lowered his head down after a while, making Su Xiqin laughed.
"You can't accept it, Mo Xigu! I don't know what kind of mentality you have to talk to me about starting over. I've suffered all kinds of pain these four years, and I'm not afraid anymore. I've thought it through, and I don't want to bend myself over for something like this anymore. I want to start another life."
Mo Xigu shrugged off her hand and stepped back after getting rejected. He snorted and said, "Start another life? Even after you're divorced, what man would want to marry a woman with a kid? Even if he did marry you, it wouldn't be because of love but for your young body."
"To you he's a burden, but not every man thinks like that."
"That's because you don't know men."
Looking at Mo Xigu who was staring at her with bloodshot eyes, she only felt that he was ridiculous. She actually never planned to marry again and wanted to live her life with just her child. However, she only said such words to reject Mo Xigu and kill all hope in him.
Su Xiqin said with a ghostly voice after pausing for a long time, "Yes, I don't understand, just like how I don't understand you." There was a pause, and she felt like there was no need to talk about this any longer. She laughed and said, "Whatever my future is, that's my business, so don't you worry about it. If there's nothing more to it, I'm heading back to work."
Having seen Su Xiqin's repulsive attitude, Mo Xigu furrowed his brows and growled, "Work. What work are you going to do now that the Mo Corporation is about to collapse? "
Su Xiqin looked at him as if she was staring at a stranger. "If you continue to be like this, then the Mo Corporation won't need anyone else to finish it. It will collapse upon itself because of your negative attitude."
Having said her final words, Su Xiqin turned around and walked away with determination. Mo Xigu stepped back until he reached the sofa and collapsed onto it as he murmured.
"Su Xiqin, you made me do this."