He walked to the front of the class and a small introduction his name was Rin even his name was attractive his face shimmered without even the slightest trace of a pimple he was around my height a little bit taller his face was beautiful I couldn't help but admire it and I think he saw me staring because he glared at me as if he was going to kill me himself which kind of upset me to think such a handsome guy could be so "RUDE"
As class went on I was fighting the urge to stare at him telling myself that is not OK and I need help but it didn't work And I find myself looking in his direction multiple times. I was scared that someone would judge me for this so I kept it in I told no one and when I say no one I mean no one not even my best friend which I couldn't talk to him anyways because he lived directly on the other side of the world so this piece of information the fact that "I am gay" stayed within me and I was hoping to hide it forever
It was lunch time I have sat down at a table all alone I do not have friends It's not that I don't want them just I need to focus on my studies and while I was sitting and eating I was thinking about how I was going to finish the homework in time when I heard a loud bang and I looked up and it was him the very handsome transfer college student
He looked up from his plate and smiled Then he looked at me and said "hi" I ignored him but he went on and asked me questions about the school and I would answer them and then he asked the question and I was hoping he wouldn't have asked he said "I saw you staring at me I would like to know why" and I said trying not to reveal my secret I said "I don't know what you mean" and he said "come on I know you were staring at me you don't have to hide it just tell me" and I kept insisting that I hadn't but we all know I was, he soon let go of the question and I realized that he was not such a bad person as I thought him to be he was quite pleasing to hang out with I find myself wanting to be closer to him but I stop the urge and I stay where I am, but this was not same for him I saw him slowly making his way towards me so close that when I turned to look at him Our knees brushed against each other and a blush came over my face and for the first time in my life I felt nervous to be around a guy he stared into my eyes and when I thought something was gonna happen he let out a small laugh and said "do you want to stay after school in the library and finish our homework"and I replied with "um... sure" but I felt like he was teasing me and getting my hopes up and then crushing them...not that I hated it I quite enjoyed it to be honest.🥴