It was a light inside me that shone like the sun. A cool blue radiating out of my chest, I held it softly between my fingers as my grip slowly lowered around it.
It was beautiful.
He was beautiful.
I felt like he was staring back at me, although the orb had no eyes, I wanted to protect him like a puppy.
He was warm when I touched him, light and fluffy, a pure positive feeling that surrounded what I imagine is my soul.
I want this feeling to last forever.
"█████"
The words hit me like a punch to the gut. My breath wavers and I can feel pain beginning to overwhelm the light between my fingertips.
"█████?"
I blink in pain, hard and with a grimace, a shiver goes down my back and when I open my eyes
He's gone
"█████, we're having dinner. Are you ready to come downstairs?"
I turn my head towards the door and shout "Just a minute!", before standing up and walking towards it.
I wavered at the door knob for just a second, but that second felt like hours in my mind.
It's almost silent at the table.
Forks clang against the plates, and a cold sniffle comes out of my father, as he wipes his nose with his left sleeve like a child would.
My mother seems like she wants to say something, but stops herself before she gets my name wrong again.
"So.. "