She rushed to the third floor in one breath, and Xu Qigang's room door was closed. She stood at the door and knocked forcefully.
On the way, the words "would rather die than submit" had scorched her insides with pain. The engagement had been arranged by the Sheng family, but they hadn't forced or offered any bribes. She was aware of her bad reputation back home and had a clear understanding of herself. So when her father wrote to inform her that the Xu family wanted to break off the engagement, although she was upset and didn't want to end it, she eventually agreed.
She wanted to work on her faults from the past, striving through her efforts to improve herself and present a more perfect version to Xu Qigang.
But, if he had already reached the point of "would rather die than submit," what was there for her to present? If a person still had a somewhat decent impression of you, even if it's a bit worse, there is room for redemption, a direction to work towards.
