I was about nine years old when my great grandma passed away. I was not sure how to deal with the pain, I just wanted it to stop. A family friend told me he had something that would help me deal the pain. He gave me my first joint and crushed pain pills told me to smoke the joint, and showed me how to snort the pills. He handed me a beer and said drink up it will help. It helped I didn't think about my great grandmas death, I didn't feel like he pain in my heart from her passing. Anytime you felt hurt in my heart I wanted to smoke a joint and snort pills and drink a beer.