Hye Bin's POV
Our meeting might be one sided for me. I want to die that day, the day where you showed up and talked to the useless me. I know I might take you for granted but please, just once, I want to experience happiness everybody desired
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"Song Hye Bin" I extend my hands and look at him
"Huh?"
"my name" I smiled
I don't know what came into me. It's a mixed feeling of relief and comfort. That's why I smiled, I guess. Maybe, just maybe, there's a slight chance of happiness around him, then I won't ask for more. My hands got tired because he is not answering and just keeps on staring at me
"Hello?" I mumbled
"Ah!" he snapped, "I'm Min Jae, Kim Min Jae"
He extends his hand towards mine and we did a handshake. After a minute, we can feel the awkwardness around us. I remove my hand from his hand, and awkwardly brushes my hair sideways
"Uhmm, can we be friends?" he said
"Huh?"
I was surprise by his sudden statement. It's a first. Yes, a first time for me to have someone who wanted me as a friend. I almost cried but I didn't. I don't want to be seen as someone weak just because of this trivial thing. I tilts my head slightly downwards so that my face will be covered by my hair. I'm shy at that moment. I don't want him to see my flustered face
"Mmmm~" I mumbled silently and nods
"Thank you! Ever since I came to this school it's my first time having a female friend" he said
I was flattered by his sudden remarks. It made my face even more flustered than before. It's also been more awkward than before. I run away as I can't handle the awkwardness anymore
"Wait!~" he shouted
I ignore him and just run away from the rooftop and goes back to my classroom. Upon entering the room, it starts again; the stares of my classmates which I hated the most. I walk towards my desk and sees another scribbled words written on it. "You whore", "Please die already, you piece of trash", "Fuck off outcast" and many more. It's hard, very hard but what can I do? An outcast like me doesn't even deserve some human rights. I already went and talked to the principal but they ignored me and just turned a blind eye on the situation. That's where I realized that I am on my own. I fight my way for survival. I know a single ant can't beat a flocks of termites. I know, I already admitted defeat from the start but . . .
"Good afternoon class!"our professor in the first afternoon subject comes in
"Attention!" our class monitor stands up and so as the rest of us, "Bow!" we bow down
"Enough, please open your books to page 34"
We all sit down
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Min Jae's POV
She ran away. Does she hate me? Am I being rude? I don't know why she ran away. I think I've said something that I shouldn't have but . . . I really don't know. I scratches my head and sits at the edge. I keeps on thinking what she said earlier
"Do you want to die?"
"You don't have the confidence don't you?"
Those words hits me real hard. I look down and as I thought; even if I want to be scared, I can't. Even though I can't feel emotions, I didn't even thought about killing myself. It's an out of the box question but she said those words pretty confidently. I admires it. My phone rings despite me being sentimental on my own in the rooftop. I grab my phone and answers it
"Hello?"
"Long time no see! Min Jae! It's me Ah Young!"
"Ah! Yeah . . . Long time no see," I answered unsincerely
Park Ah Young is my childhood friend as well as my mother's friend's daughter. They are richer than our family. We already knew each other ever since we were young. Her grandfather is the major shareholder of the school so no one bothered to mess with her
"By the way, I'm going back to school next week! See yah! Muah!"
"Okay . . . Take care" I hanged up the call
And she also likes me. I refused her ten times already but she just won't give up. She's a big boulder you can't move. I treated her as a sister yet she treated me as her potential future husband. Enough with that, so after the phone call I keeps on looking around. I never liked high places before but it's my first time appreciating the view up there. I didn't notice that it's been 30 minutes until one of my friends below shouts at me
"HEY! WHAT THE HECK ARE YOU DOING THERE? HURRY UP AND COME DOWN!" my friend shouted
" OKAY COMING!" I shouted back
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Hye Bin's POV
During the class, they keep on throwing paper balls at me but I didn't reacts to it at all. I can say that, I'm kinda used to it? The professor knows what is going on but she just ignores it. As I said I am a total school outcast
"So anyone can answer this problem on the board?"
One of my classmate raises her hand
"Maam! Hye Bin knows the answer!"
The professor looks at me
"Hye Bin, come to the board"
Solving the question isn't a problem for me. I stand up and while walking towards the board, a foot suddenly appears to where I am walking causing me to fall down
"Ah!" I screamed in pain as my face hits the floor
"Oh! I'm sorry! Are you okay?" one of my classmate asked, "Here have some water"
She pours a bottle of water at my head. I got drench and soak in water. I look at my teacher but she deviates her eyes from me. At that time, I knew that the only thing I can do is to get out of the room. I stand up and slowly walk towards the door. Before opening the door, I look at the class for a moment. The class suddenly continues like nothing happened
"So who can answer this question?"
"Me!"
"Ask me, maam!"
"Meeee!"
At that point, I finally realized. My mere existence is nothing but fun to them. I'm stupid. Tears start falling down from my face. I bows my head down and cries silently. As I was walking, a voice suddenly echoed at the hallway
"Are you okay?"
I look straight and there he is standing at the other end of the hallway. I blankly stares at him while walking. As the two of us met at the middle, I falls down from my standing
"Are you okay?" he asked
I look up at him and said, "Help me . . ." and I burst out crying
Upon crying, he hugs me and pats my back. "It's okay . . . Everything's gonna be alright! I promise". That's the only word I remember he said before I passed out
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Yes, I admit defeat. All I can see was darkness until I saw a light from you. If there's s tiny chance of having warmth from others then I'll gladly grab it. I may be selfish but I want to experience that warmth feeling. Call me selfish all you want. If that's the only way to free myself from these shackles then I will be selfish. But at that moment, I also should've realized that, darkness can swallow a tiny bit of light in a matter of time. We shouldn't have met. I shouldn't have relied on your kindness. Our meeting might be fate at first but if you look at in a different angle, it's a curse. If only I knew beforehand, I should've jump that day. Yes, I should've killed myself back then. Then all of this shouldn't have happened