Pain....
The pain is racking her whole body. It hurts... As if she had swallow thousand of needles, it hurts so much that her tear fell.
She look at the people around her who is moving around hurriedly trying to save her though her blury eyes, looking at the whole group of old people being anxious like an ants in the hot pot thinking hard of how to cure the poison in her body... but honestly, how many people really care about her?
Nope, no one in this room really care about her, they just afraid that she will die and that man... The person known as her husband and The Emperor will have their heads too.
Thinking about it... If she die, will she be able to leave that man? Will she get her freedom? Will... Will she forget everything?
Suddenly she really want to die, she want to forget everything... Forget that cruel man and all the pain and tear that he caused her... Forget that she once love him deeply... Forget all the expectations and disappointment when he took other woman into the harem.
Ahh... What to do.... She's really tired... So tired that she want to sleep forever... Maybe then, her heart will no longer feel pain? Will it stop hurting once she stop breathing?
"Em... Emperor, please forgive us servants for being incompetent... The poison... The poison in Empress body can't be cure anymore"
Who... Who is talking? Who is calling that man? Is he here? Is he unwilling to let her go even now?
Bang!!!
"You have to cure her... If she die, you don't have to live either!!"
It's his voice... That deep voice... The authority that is overwhelming from him and that familia presence...
He is still the same, the domineering and the need to control everything in the palm of his hand is still there...
He has control my whole life and now he even want to control my death...
Suddenly she really wants to say something to him... Consider it's her last word.
"I... " her weak voice reached his ears and it immediately made him stop all his actions and hurriedly walking towards her.
"Xin Xin... Xin Xin... Don't be afraid, everything will be ok... You will be ok" his voice sound so pathetic, so weak unlike his usual imposing self... She seems to hear a sight tremor in his voice.
Is he worry about me? Will he cry if I die?
Ahh... In the end, she's still not hate him enough, say she is stupid but loving someone is easy but then if you want to hate them it's so difficult...
Look at her, she has been hurt... She has been crying for nearly a decade and now she is going to die because of his consort schemed too but she still didn't want him to be hurt...
Everything is like beautiful a dream... She's still remembered when she first transmigrated here, how exciting has she been and how happy that she got to feel the warm of the family that she never knew in her past life...
In a blink of an eyes, everything vanished like a smoke and she's about to die again but perhaps, this time she won't be as lucky as to transmigrate again.
Long Xin Yan... Since we were never mean to meet from the start, let's end this ill fate relationship here...
"Long Xin Yan... Let's... Never meet... Each other... Again"
Be it in this life or in the next life, I vom to never meet you again... To never fall in love with you and be hurt by you.