Sorry for the long time of no updating. I was really really busy. Since they already lifted the Quarantine off and work are already resume that made me really busy but nonetheless I am so happy to finally be able to work again I really miss doing my job.
It has been a week I guess since the last time I check my webnovel and was surprised to see comments and reviews. I was so so happy, I was literally grinning from ear to ear just by reading it. My brother even asked me if I'm already going crazy just because I was grinning while I was in front of my phone. Anyways thank you so much for all the support. Don't worry there's so much more to come so just hang on with me.
So without further ado. Here is chapter 53! Yehey!
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Teakyun can't believe that he is now in a hospital waiting for the Doctor to come out. Waiting for the news about the business man he's just having meeting with. The two where just having a lunch meeting when the man suddenly couldn't breathe and start feeling numb to his body so Teakyun immidiately called for an emergency to take the man to the hospital and since he was the nearest person that knows him he came with them.
Teakyun could not stand the waiting and decided to go around looking for a place where he could sit quietly but while walking around he didn't expect to see the face he has been looking now for 3 Months now. Theo was walking somewhere and Taekyun followed him silently till both of them reached the rest room. Theo got in one of the cubicles inside, Teakyun on the other hand waited for the rest of the men inside to get out before finally locking the rest room putting out the sign outside so others won't disturb them.
Taekyun was kind of running patience waiting for his wife to come out and was already planning in forcing the cubicle to open when he heard a movement inside citing that the other person is about to come out so he decided to stand to his place.
Taekyun looked at the face of the man he hasn't seen for a long time. He noticed the redness in his eyes the slightly wet eyelashes that he has and the slight red nose of him. He figured that the Omega just came from crying, but aside from the physical evidences telling him that his wife just cried Teakyun noticed emotions towards him that he thought will never going to see in his wife's eyes.
He was expecting to see his eyes glimmers with excitement towards him cause that's how Theo his Teddy always has been when it comes to him. No matter how he hurt him the latter one will always have a forgiving stares for him and eyes filled with silent forgiveness that assures him that he will always be forgiven cause that's how much Theo loves him. With just a little gesture of apology on his part even with him not saying it out loud Theo always forgives him. So he thought that if his wife realizes that he even came on his own back to their country just to look for him then Theo would feel happy and excited in seeing him. But Teakyun see a different emotion to his wife's eyes — It was fear. *Does he fear me? Or fear the fact I found him?* Teakyun asked himself. The thought that his wife's hates him didn't sit well with Teakyun that it made his heart enrage. So he put on his serious calm self righteous face and great his wife.
"How have you been my wife?" Teakyun said as he greeted his wife but Theo's body flinched upon hearing Teakyun's voice.
"T-Tea." Teakyun can see all different kinds of emotion to his wife's eyes added as minutes passes by. Fear, nervousness and pain. The way he says his name It's like any seconds now he would break down and cry. Teakyun can clearly see it and yet he continued.
"Is that the only thing you will going to say to me after 3 Months of not seeing your husband?" Teakyun scoffed. He walked towards Theo which made the Omega step back till his back hit the cold tiling of the restroom's wall.
"You do realize that your joke is not funny at all. I'm not even amuse my dear wife." Teakyun placed both of his hands on the tile wall trapping Theo in between.
Theo on the other hand tried hard to regain his resolve by composing himself. "Tea, I have given you what you wanted. What more do you want from me?" Theo said calmly his heart is racing which makes his breathing shallow and painful but he tried to hold out to himself not letting him show any slight pain that he is currently feeling right now.
"What I want? Huh!" Teakyun asked sarcastically.
"What exactly do I want? Or do you really know what I want." Teakyun near his face to Theo which made them just inches apart. Theo can feel his Husband's breathing.
"You want to get away from our marriage. You wanted to be free from me. I have given you what you wanted. You are free now, free to do whatever you want, to love whoever you want. I just hope this time you won't hurt who might that person be just how you hurt me." Theo gathered all his courage and place his right hand to hold Teakyun's face.
"Be happy Teakyun that's all I wanted from you. I have forgiven you to all the things you have done to me." What Theo said made Teakyun speechless he can feel the sincerity and sadness at the same time in his voice. He didn't know but it's as if his wife is really letting him go. He was only brought back to his senses when he felt his wife's hands on his right arm trying to remove it so he could get away from him, but Teakyun didn't permit it so he grab Theo on his shoulder and harshly press him back to the wall.
"I won't be happy unless you are with me. You have to stay forever with me." Teakyun's words instantly melted Theo's heart. Theo couldn't explain it one word from Teakyun and he easily gives in but that warmth he felt with Teakyun's words were easily replaced by coldness that he has known for years now.
"You have to pay for everything. You think it would be easy? You think I'll make it easy for you? Well thi..." A loud echo of slap filled the empty room of the restroom. Teakyun was about to retaliate when he saw Theo's face.
"Go hit me! I'm used to it, it's not something new to me so hit me! In those years we have been together never once I hurted you. NOT. ONCE. JUST. NOW." Theo covered both of his eyes as he cried heavily. " Pay for what exactly Teakyun?" Theo looked at him.
"I don't know what I have done to you for you to treat me this way but whatever it was. I think with what you did to me is more than enough to pay for my sin that I don't even know." Theo remove Teakyun's hand to get away but was grab by his Husband again.
"You don't know what I'm feeling. You don't know the depths of your sins to me." Theo like at him.
"How would I know if you're not telling me anything. I'm tired Tea, would it make you feel better if I die? Would my life be enough as a compensation?" Teakyun felt cold wind run to his body when he heard his wife said those words. He wanted to said no but no words left his mouth.
"Very well, I just want to make some conditions first don't ever approach me, don't come near me and live your life with no regrets. I just want for you to be happy that's all. You will get your wish soon, it won't be long now." Theo left Teakyun standing there staring at the wall, spacing out.
After getting outside the restroom Theo tried to breath properly taking in deep breaths but failed to do so his heart is still racing and every pound is painful to him he tried to seek for help but remembers his promised to his Husband and his promise to Mrs. Harris. He is torn between keeping himself alive and keeping his promise to his Husband. He sat on the floor as he closed his eyes to clear his mind and then laugh as he finally made up his mind. He got up and tried to seek for a help, his eyes are already blurring and his breathing is getting shallower each passing seconds. He feels that his feet are getting unstable, he feels his sweat forming even though he feels really really cold the last thing he heard was the voice of his husband calling him before he passed out.
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Teakyun was left with many many questions inside his head that no matter how much he thinks there are no answers that can be found. He doesn't know how much and how far he should take his anger to his wife. He is very much hurting and the pain that his wife is feeling is nothing compares to what the pain he is carrying. *Is it really because you are hurting or is it because your ego was hurt by the fact that there were a lot of men who has been with your wife before you?* Sudden voice inside his head said giving him the answer that he has been repressing for too long.
"No! It was his fault! He made me believe that I was the only one!" Teakyun whispered talking to himself.
*Was it really the case? He didn't say that you were the only one because you didn't even asked. You are afraid to confront him instead you put all the blamed to him.* Said again the voice.
"No it's his fault, his alone I was the victim here." Teakyun answered back.
*Are you really the victim? Will it make you feel better if he just die?* That last question made him froze and back to reality. His eyes immidiately scanned to whole place to look where his wife is. When Teakyun didn't see Theo he run outside only to see Theo's body laying on the floor not far from where he is.
His body went stiff as memories of the voices inside his head keeps on repeating.
*Will it make you feel better if he just die?*
*Will it make you feel better if he just die?*
*Will it make you feel better if he just die?*
*Will it make you feel better if he just die?*
"No, I never asked for this. No." Teakyun said to himself as he run towards his wife.
"Teddy, Teddy wake up. What happened wake up." Teakyun slightly tap Theo's face hoping for the other to wake up but Theo's eyes slowly closed, so Teakyun decided to carry him and asked for the nurses help. The nurse to responded immediately called for help.
"What happened?" Asked the emergency Doctor.
"We don't know a man just found him inside unconscious." Explained the nurse.
"Lay him to the bed and check for his vitals." Commanded the Doctor.
The nurses immediately transfered him to the hospital bed to check his vitals. "Doctor his pulse his weak."
"Blood pressure?"
"80/60, he is having a difficulty in breathing."
"Put a breathing mask on him if his breathing pattern won't improve then we will intubate him." The nurse immidiately do as she was told.
A nurse came running to the Doctor after the first nurse left. "Doctor, I'm sorry but that man is Dr. Haide's patient. He came here to do his check up he was with his gurdian...."
"Where is Theo? I heard someone collapse just outside the restroom is that Theo?" Mrs. Tiana Harris cut what the nurse was explaining to the Doctor.
"We don't know Ma'am we still yet get the identity of the patient."
"Please let me see if it's him." The elder woman pleaded.
Teakyun grab the hand of the elder woman who he knows well. "Auntie, you are with my wife?" The woman could not believe that of all the places he will meet the man is in the hospital with Theo.
"Hands off Teakyun. You know nothing, just leave Theo to us."
"Called Doctor Haide. It will save us the time to run tests to him to figure out if he has any underlying sickness." The nurse immidiately page the Doctor.
"What's happening? Why are the both of you in the hospital and why does he have a Doctor here?" Teakyun asked he is getting a bad feeling to the whole situation.
"It's nothing of your concern." The woman answer
"It is my business that is my wife laying on the bed over there!" Teakyun shouted, he hated the fact that he knows nothing and the obliviousness is making him nervous and uneasy.
"Your business? Your wife? If you had done your job to be a good husband to him you won't be begging me to know what is happening to your wife. He won't run away from you in the first place." The woman scorn as she retorted to Teakyun. She feel disgusted just by hearing how Teakyun speak selfeshly.
"You know full well that I have all the rights to claim my wife back!" Teakyun grab the woman by her arm as he whispered yell those words to her.
"Then I will do everything in my power to severe that rights. After what you have done to him I never thought that you still have the face to say that you have the rights? You violated him countless of times, battered him, abused him emotionally and mentally. After all that what rights do you still have?" Elizabeth said half whispering and half yelling at the same time.
Teakyun was taken a back he never thought that his wife would rant him out.
"What cat got your tongue?" Tiana sarcastically said.
"Teddy said told you?" Teakyun ask.
"No, you know he will never going to tell others right? I ran an investigation to him on what might be the reason that your head over heals wife that is madly in love with you suddenly ran away from you. I was surprised at first and could not believe it but I guess what's rotten will always be rotten. You will never going to change."
"You don't know what I have been through because of him. The shame and humiliation. You don't know anything about it so don't make comments as if you know everything why I'm acting this way."
"If you two will going to bicker then just please go outside." Dr. Haide scold them.
"How is he Doctor?" Teakyun asked immidiately.
"And who are you? Are you also a relative of the patient." The Doctor asked. It was his first time seeing the man and as much as possible he wanted to be careful in giving information about the patient.
"I'm his Husband. So how is he and why is he in the hospital and have a Doctor here?" Teakyun look at the man like he wanted to strangle the information out of his mouth.
"He just had an asthma attack no need to get worked up so much. We will move him in the observation room he can go home after he wakes up." The doctor didn't particularly lied but he also didn't say Theo's real condition. " I need to go I still need to see my other patients. Mrs. Harris I'll talk to you later about my diagnosis results to the tests I ran to you?" The Doctor lied since Theo specifically said not to disclose his condition to anyone but him and Mrs. Harris only.
"I understand I'll just going to see Theo if he's ok then I'll follow you." Elizabeth said.
"Asthma? His asthma has never been that severe to the point he will loose consciousness." Teakyun said. Something is not sitting well with what is happening.
"You have been not attentive to your wife so how would you know?" Elizabeth just answered before walking pass him to see Theo who is sleeping silently.
Both of them looked at the sleeping Theo, the doctor replace the breathing mask with the cannula since his breathing pattern went back to normal, but despite being asleep tears started trailing down from his eyes that are close as he mumbles words.
Elizabeth couldn't hear it so she moved close her ear to Theo's mouth to properly hear it but Theo's words and pleading deliberately broke Elizabeth's heart.
"I still can't come with you. I..... still... ne.... need to see them. I still need to asked for their forgiveness. Even for the last time I want to be with them"
Those sentence keeps on repeating that Elizabeth needs to talk to the sleeping Theo in hopes that it will take him away from his bad dreams.
"Sssshhhhhh.... Don't come with them, who might that person who is asking you to come. You promise us Theo. Stay with us." Elizabeth mumble to Theo's ear and as if Theo heard it he stopped mumbling those Words.
"I'll need to get my wife back." Teakyun said with finality.
"I like to see you try." Tiana said without a hint of fear.
"You know pretty well that I'm not someone you should go against with. I always get what I want remember that." Teakyun turn around to leave but what Elizabeth said made him stopped.
"Money and power are no longer an issue here, even your pride that you are so proud of can't and won't going to give you what you want. If I fail it will be your biggest lost, so let me win this battle let me have your wife and maybe just maybe we can win against his fate." Tiana said as if pleading Teakyun to just give up but Teakyun didn't answered he just simply went out after seconds when she's done saying her piece.
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"Am I dead?" Theo asked he was in a place where everything is surrounded by white color. The floor, the sky and even the horizon are all in white? He tried to run as far as he can hoping to see other things, places and faces other than the color of white. It was an endless run and no matter where he goes he can't see a direction to go. He was getting tired and the air that he's breathing in feels like is no longer enough. He can feel pain to his chest.
Theo hold his chest but can't feel any heart beat from it. "I can feel no heartbeat but if I was dead already then why does my heart hurt? Why does it still feel painful." Theo's tears are welling up.
"Theo don't cry. Big brother is here I will protect you like always. Come with me and I promise not to let other people to hurt you again."
"Brother is that you?" Theo asked, then a silhouette of a man appears and slowly take form in front of him.
"Yes it's me your brother Arnold." Theo immidiately run towards his brother to hug him.
"I missed you so much. It broke our hearts when you left us. It's all my fault that you died at a very young age.
His big brother Pat his head. "It was never your fault. I wanted to protect you but couldn't. I'm sorry Theo. If only I didn't let my emotion get the best of me then I would have been with you protecting you from all the pain."
Theo shake his head no. "No our other brothers are also protecting me. They took your role as my protector when you left us. It was my own decision and stubborness that lead me to this situation."
"Then I guess we really are brother's both are stubborn. Come with me Theo, if you come with me everything will be ok. You will no Longer feel the pain and suffering." Theo was already tempted enough to grab the hand of his older brother when he remembers how his parents cried when their eldest son died because of the motor accident.
"Dad cried like his whole world fell apart. On your funeral our Dad who's always strong brake down that time. I never seen Dad so vulnerable during that time. Not even when I left to eloped with Teakyun he never shed a tear but on your funeral he was crying." Theo said as he think about that specific moment in the past.
"You can hear Mom's crying inside the room, me and our brothers are also crying. Mom didn't get to eat and sleep that much it took us 2 years to finally accept it but there are times when I see Mom cries as she holds your photo and Dad cries as he looked at your helmet." Theo wife the tears from his eyes.
"I asked Dad one time know what he told me?" Theo asked.
"What Theo? What did Dad said?"
"He said that children are the ones who should burry their parents and not the other way around. Dad said that and yet here I am one foot on the grave. I might be the one to give them another heart break so." Theo kneeled down in front of his brother as he pleaded.
"I still can't come with you. I..... still... ne.... need to see them. I still need to asked for their forgiveness. Even for the last time I want to be with them" Theo keeps on repeating his plea until a voice out of nowhere start talking to him.
"Sssshhhhhh.... Don't come with them, who might that person who is asking you to come. You promise us Theo. Stay with us." Said the voice. Theo scanned the place to know where that voice might be from.
"Looks like they still doesn't want you to come with me. Theo finish everything you need to do so when the time comes you won't have any regrets like me. Always remember that big brother always loves you. Say sorry to Mom and Dad for me, I know I broke their hearts. No parents would want to bury their own child before them but I guess that's the end of the line for me. I love you brother live your remaining time with no regrets." Arnold's form starts to disappear as his voice slowly starts to fade away too.
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Tiana seated in front of the Doctor's table for the second time that day. "So how is his real condition?" Tiana asked getting straight to the point.
"To be honest what happened is a slight panicked attack with a sudden on-set of his asthma because of too much anxiety. It must be the husband who had cause the attacked. Theo was still doing great till he excused himself to go to the restroom."
"He and his Husband are not in good terms." Tiana just simply answered enough for the Doctor to get the hint of what's the real deal between the couple.
"Ow but he needs to take good care of his emotional health. It won't be healthy for him if he keeps on getting emotionally affected each now and then. This is a serious matter I hope you should take it seriously."
"Thank you Doctor Haide. Is there anything else? If there's none then can I already excuse myself? There is no one who will look after Theo."
"Yes, thank you and please make sure that he drinks his meds."
Teakyun was already in the bed but earlier's event didn't let him sleep. He kept on thinking about what happened and about what Theo said. Also most importantly the thing what Theo said about death, he could not understand any of it but he is certain now that he had found his wife he will make sure to get him again within his grasp even if he has to drag him just for him to follow him he will do it.
"Hello I want you to do something for me. Yes, I'll take care of The Harris I just simply want to get what is mine" With that said Teakyun end the call.