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Mnmnmnmhh...
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"Ughh" I released an annoyed growl...
I can't sleep somehow, and I couldn't understand
I could understand if it was insomnia, but no... it just wasnt it
It might have been because I just woke up some time earlier
I rise on the bed and sat at the edge of it, my eyes were as lively as it used to be
I know I should be sleeping to recover or something, maybe if I could force myself to sleep like before when I had trouble sleeping in my former world
I closed my eyes for a bit, and clear my mind
Fuuh... actually the feeling is nice but... I dont feel any change even after doing it a little bit longer, I didn't feel a hint of drowsyness or being sleepy at all
I can still force it to atleast half asleep, but its probbably gonna end up more bad that it could ever help
Hmm... Ah... I just remembered one thing, the former me wasn't sleeping on a normal time anyway, like I live in the east but I follow the timezone of the west, like sleep on day and stay awake on night...
Nocturnal 100, if I was to convert it into an old meme
Jeez, gathering as much fatigue as if it was a prized item...
Definitely not gonna help me
I relaxed my mind since I enjoyed it a little bit, its the first time in a while that I wasn't troubled by anything. Exept sleep of course. So I can at least relax my mind
Hmm...
Somehow I get to miss that dragonewt form, I wasn't even able to see if I could fly...
In the first place, how could I even fly?
Angels, winged demi-human and other stuffs flutter their wings in weird ways, I just dont get the logic behind it
Birds flutter their wings and balance because of their tail wings. The same goes to airplanes
The last game I played was related to military like Tanks, Aviation warplanes and naval warships, so I had a little trouble imagining it when it comes to reality...
I know that a plane will swooosh swooosh spin when its tail wings got cut off while in air, I saw it as I got shot down by an AA(anti-aircraft) turret, Err my frustration that time
Depending on speed, propeller and maneuverability you could handle to atleast land safely with just that, similary to the jets, but unlike jets which are designed for that single winged style, you can't possibly do so with the little power of a propeller engine and without the balancing help of a tail wings. Also if ever with luck and wide main wings, you can't maneuver it anymore since the tail handles the going up or down control
Now that I remember, even jets have tail wings, rarely some faster jets only have one wing
Also a plane could also easily fly and go horizontally because of the propeller or force
Oh, its just like drones and helicopters, no... actually its best like that if I were to compare it with the mid-air winged people variety. But if I try to imagine the logic directly with wings... hmm...
Wait! now that I think of it. What if its only temporary? and will never come back again!?
Eiiih...
I got taken aback by that thought and slowly I felt that tears formed at the edge of my eyes...
"Muuuh..." somehow I felt like my body was even more sensitive to emotions, it actually paired with my expressive inner-personality
I'm not good at expressing myself with words, so my inner-personality became a little more expressive by actions
I wiped my eyes for a bit, it's probbably bad if people could just simply read my face. This is another world afterall. But either way I'm barely expressive in front of other people. I also likes to feign ignorance as much as possible and mostly avoid troubles
My facial expression screams of 'You can kill each other, just dont mind me here'
But it's too different when I'm alone... actually its only when I'm alone that I'm like this...
I just got too used to 'People will never get you if they are not interested'
Its sad but I'm just like that, you cant just push yourselves to others. I too consider showing it when it reached the point where we get each other, or when people get close to be exact
But at most I'm just stoic and barely expressive...
'To distance yourself from others, and to hold tightly whats within your reach'
'To not wish for anything more, but to treasure what you have'
It might have been a weird thing to remember this after all that happened before. I guess it's already too late for that...
I lightly thump my chest to heighten up my feeling..
S-soft... surprisingly it gave me two times more motivation...
I can't just go on thinking about depressing stuffs. Life is life, you cant just waste a second chance... err... wait a second... wasnt it three?
No no no, dont get depressed. Just move on like the man you are... the... the... Gentlewoman? Uhh how did my thinking got tangled around?...
Fuuh~ how about I just calm down instead...
Hmm... the room was still visible... actually it's dark like black but... I can see just fine... it has no window for any other lights to come in
Hmm... so my night vision isn't like any other night vision like those goggles and animal eyes
They require sufficient amount of light to atleast be able to see, their eyes or lenses were sensitive to light but mine was the other way around where it doesn't require light at all
Eyes naturally receive light via irises and it reads the light before sending to brain... uh uh I wasnt just sleeping in class, I learned something too...
I stood up from the bed and reached the door knob
*fuuuuuuh*
Uhm? I heard a soft and calm breathing, it was soft to point that I got entrance by it for a bit
I looked at the direction and saw Mayrine sleeping calmly under the cover with her head peeking out, for once I got reminded by how good she looked, It came to me before that maybe I should change the way I perceive beauty, but it's just a hard thing to do considering how the things have been for me so far
Hehehe Its cute, she has lost all her earlier trance and she's now just a defenceless girl
I wanna pinch that cheek and claim it mine
Ehe-oh... what the hell am I thinking...
Ahem Ahem...
I turned the knob and reached the hallway, now that I've been thinking of it, I forgot the term they said to be a corridor, It's wide but I should have considered it
It has only four rooms in it, and I was wondering if it was actually any lesser than the possible number of passengers
I walked out of it still troubled about my lack of words. I'm well aware of my doubtful capability to remember things
I reached the outside after opening the door and was now greeted by the nightly scenery, the deck felt more like a terrace in front of a dark night shoreline
Everything I can see was more of dark-ish night blue dyed scenery, it has beauty on its own, and it's exactly what I longed more...
I suddenly got an idea that ran across my mind
I reached for the side railings and took a peek under, looking to the night blue waters that waved endlessly as it hit the ship
Just as I expected, I can see through it, however I could not perceive any more deeper as it only ends in an endless dark color
The mysteries of the sea might have been the hardest thing to solve even after having an extra ordinary capability or skills
Even I would be weirded out if I could ever see the whole sea till the sea floor as if it was a clear glass, its too much to wish for, and also its definitely creepy seing something like floating fish and other creatures
I heaved a sigh, but I felt like I was lost once again
I relaxed for a bit, but I felt tensed up once again when suddenly a light focused directly at me
Its the same as those police car chase movie scenes or the watchtower jailbreak scenes...
Somehow I felt conflicted... nuu Fbi!?
As I calmed myself for abit, I hear a small voice coming right above me
"Xylene?"
Uh? I turned and look at the source, right above me, no, above the room there is a railing, and I saw a familiar face, it's Erin
Confused, I looked back to the source of light
I was relived that my eyes won't just burn by the sight of light even after the night vision, but I'm slill not happy by it
Of course your eyes may not burn by it, but for something like pointing it directly at your face, that, obviously would hurt...
I tried to cover my eyes till when I heard Erin's voice closer by me
"Xylene, why are you here?"
He went by my side and waved at source of the light, soon after, it went on other direction
That somehow felt like a light tower
"Why are you here Xylene, I thought you would be sleeping?"
"Oh? uh..., I wasn't actually sleepy" I answered as he seems to be looking the the floor
"Hmm, well its good that it wasn't wet. Make sure to take caution next time"
"Umm? Sure" I was wondering why but soon I remembered about the earlier rain. It might have been long enough that its now gone
Oh I see, You might fall off the sea if you got an accident with it
I should probbably take caution next time
"Hmm... well it would've been better if you met father"
".....?"
"Just follow me..."
Erin led the way as I watched him walk to one side of it, from there I saw a very steep stair, well it wasn't high stepped but it barely looked like stairs and its probbably better to say that it's already a ladder
"Just up there, be careful"
Erin guided me there, he went above it first and waved me to follow
Somehow I got curious about it, I followed him and noticed the railing got something to support the back from falling.
That much I felt safe enough
I made it above and saw a big adult man standing there near an obelisk that has a wheel, Ah it was the steering wheel, what's it called again?
The man chucked slightly by the sight of my bewilderment
"Xylene huh? well hello to you young miss"
"Oh... ah..." I wasn't able to respond to a quick conversation
He's an adult man way above even my older self that was around 5'7, he's actually got well build compared to my past life, errr... it's not even close to it
There was only one lamp there just nearby hanging above the roof, the place felt more of a squared Gazebo if I was to say it, The sight of multiple ropes just around and the wooden railings around, also it could be similar to a watch tower as it was considerably wide like a room
The sight of an actual captain's deck, wonderful. I might even laugh at my history teachers right now
'Haaaah! here's the assignment you've been asking for. Right in front of me!'
I was waved to get closer. There, I got tensed up abit
I timidly went closer to the adult man who was Erin's father...
Then I suddenly felt a warm touch above my head
"Feeling shy huh, don't worry, I've heard you before from both Erin and Mayrine"
His slightly rugged hands russled above my head, and from there I realized I was being patted
I retorted slightly and tried to tap his hands away
I was being treated as a child, no I was but, I'm also not...
No just stop, I feel weird as man (before)
He don't seem to mind it too and just chuckled slightly while he released the hand
"Aren't you supposed to be asleep right now?" he asked
"No... I can't... I just woke up earlier" I said timidly
"Oh, Having trouble sleeping huh, well I see.
Oh right... you might not known, My name is Edward"
"I'm Xylene..."
"Haha, was it courtesy aye?, its okay to be a bit more open" and he just chuckled most of the time
As he talks to me, his other hand were still at the wheel
It's literally the oldest version of boats. The sight of the sails at night and the light posts on the boat
I gulped unconsciously as I muster my courage and ask
"Umm, can I ask you for a bit?" I said while feeling a little tensed up
"Well. As I said, you can be a bit open. Well go ahead..." he said
Somehow I couldn't understand his airs, but I do feel slight familiarity to it... but not enough to understand it
Unbeknownst to her, it was exactly like how she perceive cuteness. Well Unlike a certain lolicon which was amplified by being a female. This was the norm and could still be considered a wholesome scene
"I want to ask about guilds..."
I got a little tensed by the sudden change in him...
"Oh ya, there is this too. It might have been hard for you. Well it's fine"
Huh... I couldn't get it, but before I could think of anything, he began talking
"Guilds are... associations that assist majority of people. It was there to regulate people on behalf of the capital. Unlike the public order, Guilds runs separately and wasn't by any... directly connected to capitals...
There are 7 guilds in total. Merchant's guild, Adventurer's Guild, Knight's Guild, Alchemists' Guild, Crafter's Guild, Wizard's Guild and Mercenary Guild.
The main Guilds were Merchant's Guild, Adventurer's Guild, Wizard's Guild, and Mercenary Guilds.
There is a rule that you are able to join most of them but you must rack up a sufficient amount contributions to avoid getting removed.
It's advisable to focus only on one Guild"
As he said that, my eyes were glittering. And even after he finished, I was oblivious to it
He was mused by my sight, he chuckled too by that and continued talking albeit different topic
"Say... do you like ships?" he said