Since now, My dad never talked about his desires openly with me because he didn't get chance for it due to presence of my mom and brother. But I feel something unique when he touches. But someday that n all should be revealed. One unfortunate time came..
It was the monsoon morning. My brother is suffering from wheezing problem i.e., Asthama. The sea breeze in Andhaman is actually not suitable for his health conditions. That day he suffered lot and we have to urgently admit him in hospital. He was small boy studying in 4th and I was in 5th class. He needs additional care and doctor recommended to be someone along with him. So my mom stayed along with him. But here is the case that I have to stay alone with my dad in home. Time always changes and put us into typical situations.
Till evening everything was absolutely fine because he went office. I was watching cartoon series of 'Doraemon' .The door bell rang. I have scared lot. My Heart beat went faster. My hands were trembling due nervousness. Finally I opened the door and Turned back to go towards room but he hugged me. I pushed him away and said Daddy in loud tone. I was about to cry but I controlled. Then we had our dinner by watching TV. He said me to put some utensils in Kitchen. Mean while he turned off the TV and opened his lap top. He said to sit behind him. He said "Am just teaching u, am just educating about sex" and then he thought me how to unhidde or hide the folders. He unhidded one the folder which contain full of prone videos. I asked him "Why u should teach me daddy?".. He replied "When I married ur mom she doesn't knows anything about this and I felt so difficulty to teach her so I wish my daughter should not be like that". But I don't find this reason is reasonable one. But my thoughts swinged ;Then why not in our books, it was not given ,did government does not feel it is important? or else this is not the age to learn this, I am confused simply but ofcourse I have to tolerate all for this night obviously. I was scared by seeing the process running in the video. My dad slowly put hands on shoulder. I said him "am sleepy". He said "ok fine , lets sleep". He hugged me tightly and I slept without my knowledge ,I don't remember what happened at that last night as am also a kid. But next morning I went to school. But felt something awkward due to last night because when I saw other children they were so happy with no tensions and their was no temptations among them. I feel how these guys can be so happy if their fathers r like that because as I told earlier am not so mature to understand that every individual is different. I thought everyone's father teaches their daughter. But scenario tells am the only person who scares to interact with people and smiles for no reason. I just maintain friendly nature with everyone but not close to anyone just hi means hi ,bye means bye.