I didn't know what to do after I went back home I didn't tell no one I couldn't tell know when I had no friends no family no sibling after that night I couldn't stop thinking about it I was too scared to walk back home. I thought that maybe this could change my life I can finally be someone that tough I could finally be the girl I want to be my brother looked at me funny like he never seen me before. After dinner he went to my room and said I am so sorry for being so mean to you I didn't realize what I did I asked him what did you mean he stand there for a while l..l... I see the cuts on your arm I'm sorry for ever being mean to you please don't hurt yourself because of me. I said what the cuts on my arm he grabbed my arm and said look I see the cuts I'm sorry I'm so sorry don't hurt yourself you're my twin sister I can't lose you he gave me a big hug he never hugged me in my life. Then my mom and dad came in my mom yelled at me and yelled say LET GO OF YOUR BROTHER stop your ruining his his reputation my dad says STOP STOP he told me he told my brother to go in his room . They yelled and yelled at me I couldn't take it anymore so I ran out of my window when they were done yelling and I realize that I saw someone looking at me when I went outside. I didn't care all that matter was getting out of that house so I ran to the person that talked to me about being in the gang the people looked at me I said I.... I want to be tested they all looked at me knowing what I was talking about the person turned around and said are you sure.... you can get really injured. I said I know but I want to be in the gang I don't care if I get injured I really want to do this I think I can do this so the people took me grab me by the arms it looks at me differently they looked at me like they were scared for me. They said are you sure you're ready for this I said let's go they grabbed two bats and they started beating me with it. I screamed like I was being murdered I didn't care is this is going to let me be in a gang then show me what you got.......