When I shut the door to the bathroom, his gaze shot up and relief filled his face.
I smiled slightly before going over to the dresser. To avoid any temptation, I slid underwear on before taking off the towel. I then put on shorts and a tshirt.
I looked over to him to see he was still in the same spot, just watching me. I sighed deeply, "I said I'm not going to bolt. I'm keeping that promise."
His face softened, "I messed up. I admit it. So forgive me and we can go back to normal, okay?"
I shook my head, "we're a couple, Jayden..."
His hands clenched, "you're calling me Jayden?"
"Its your name."
"You only called me that before we got close! What is that supposed to mean?! Are you trying to leave me?!" He shot to his feet, "I won't let you!"
"Jay," I huffed but he seemed to calm down a bit. "I'm not leaving. I'm upset and mad."
He came over to me and tried to touch me but froze when I moved away. "Why are you avoiding me?!"
I hesitated as I saw fear, pure fear in his eyes. His hands were shaking and his body was stiff. I took a hard breath as I realized what was happening. He's actually scared. I smiled sadly to Jayden and moved back to where he was. I lightly placed my hand on his arm and he quickly looked to me.
"I'm sorry, I didn't mean to. It's just my natural reaction." I fought the urge to move away as Jayden placed his hand on my cheek.
"What do I need to do to fix this? I apologized but you went and hung out with another guy instead of me."
"I ran into someone that's like family to me. He's like an older brother or a dad. I wanted to catch up with him and he helped me work through my feelings."
"We should've worked through them together!"
I bit my lip to stop me voice from rising, "we would've only yelled at each other. Now that we've had some time to think, we can talk about this productively."
His shaking hands came to either side of my face, "I thought I was doing what you wanted. You said you wanted to take care of things like this by youself."
I looked away, "but there's a difference, Jay." I put my hands over his as I looked back to him. "You wouldn't even look at me or him. Even before it went crazy, you didn't even try to stop him. He's your friend, right? But you didn't stop him yesterday or today." I fought tears, "you didn't have to fight my battle for me, but we said we would support each other. That we were a team. But what happened today...that wasn't anything but me defending myself against another cocky Alpha." I squeezed his hands, "I walked away the first time because he's important to you. But I'm not going to listen to assholes like him! Not without saying my piece!"
He suddenly pulled away from me, "I'm not going to defend Elijah and his mom! Not after what he did to you and me!"
"Regardless of what he has done, that doesn't make his mom any less of a person!" I took a deep breath, "I didn't want you to defend him or his mom...or even me. I just wanted support... your support."
He suddenly embraced me and I fought the urge to struggle. One arm went around my waist and the other around my upper chest. He held me tightly and I could hear how fast his heartbeat was and felt how much he was shaking.
"From now on I'll support you. I just hesitated."
I lightly hugged him back, "okay."
Jayden's lips were on mine immediately after I spoke and lightly kissed me repeatedly. His kisses became deeper, longer, and with more lust while his shaking lessened. I pulled away and he rushed to try to pull me back.
I put my hands on his chest so that he couldn't pull me back to kiss me again. "We aren't going to just go back to how things were yesterday, Jay. I'm still upset and need some time."
His expression changed to confusion, "but we made up. Now we can," he slid his fingers up my spine, "comfort each other. I want to show you how much I love you."
I frowned, "stop, Jay. It's not that easy. You really hurt me! We aren't teenagers that fought because you didn't text me back or something! I'm not in the mood right now. If you can't understand that, then I'll go out to the couch."
"You don't love me?"
I pushed him off, "that has nothing to do with having sex after fighting. If I didn't love you, I wouldn't have come back after this morning." I glared at him, "keep your hands off."
I went over to the bed and quickly laid down and closed my eyes. I heard Jayden slowly join me and felt that he did not come close to me.
I woke up early and quietly changed into some swim trunks. I went out to the infinity pool and watched the sunrise. I looked down to my crossed arms and at the ring on my hand. Maybe it's too soon. But the twins were involved and are excited about the future wedding. I could postponed, take time planning it and see if this is really the best.
I glanced behind me as I felt the water move and saw Jayden in a swimsuit, standing with his feet in the water. "Can I join you?"
I nodded before turning back to watch the waves. Jayden came beside me and I felt his gaze on my every move.
"Are you going to talk or just stare?"
He sighed deeply, "I went about last night all wrong and your words really got to me." He took another deep breath, "I'm new at serious relationships and this is my first one. I'm not trying to make an excuse, but I now know why I couldn't understand at first."
I smirked, but didn't look to him, "I'm new to serious relationships too. The only serious relationships I've had are the twins and...Hunter." I looked to him with a slight smile, "the difference is that I am always on the losing end of relationships. It's made it where I know what I want and what I need. I refuse to settle anymore, Jay. Because if I do, it will affect not just me but the kids too."
"I want to do anything I have to so that everyone in our family is happy. I will keep working on myself until I can give you everything you want and deserve." I was surprised when he moved behind me and wrapped his arms around me so that he could interlock out hands, "will you still marry me?"
I nodded and he kissed my shoulder, but suddenly backed away. "Sorry, it was in the moment. I won't force you."
I felt my head flood with relief and turned around to face him. I lightly wrapped my arms around his neck as I smiled. "So that means you want me to take lead again?"
He chuckled, "absolutely." His arms wrapped around me and lifted me up so that I could wrap my legs around his waist.
"We should probably make use of our last few hours alone." I kissed him deeply and he rushed to wrapped his tongue around mine. I moaned, causing him to suck on my tongue and bite my lip while pushing me up against the wall of the pool. His hands moved to my ass and he began groping it as I shivered and some of my pheromones escaped. I removed one arm from around him and slid it down to his swim trunks.
"I thought you didn't want to get pregnant."
I smirked before lightly biting his neck, "who said that?" I looked to his eyes as my pheromones increased and my mind was lost to lust. "I want you," I whispered as I began moving my hand up and down.
He rushed to pull down my swim trunks before he slipped two fingers inside me. I shuddered and caught my breath. A gasp escaped as I felt him spread his fingers.
"The water..."
Jayden held onto me tightly before he went through the water and carried me as he walked up the steps. He walked over to the small outdoor couch near our room and sat down with me on top of him. His fingers began moving inside me again as I pulled his member out and stroked him lightly.
"Make me yours," I whispered and Jayden thrusted his member into me. His pheromones encompassed me as I shivered and he began ramming us together.
"Let's have another baby," he whispered into the crook of my neck as I pulled us closer together. I moaned and cried with every thrust as Jayden kept my body against his.
"Right there," I groaned as he shoved me down onto his member and began grinding inside me. I clung onto him as I trembled and panted. "Good...so good!"
Jayden began ramming into that same spot and grinding onto it. I kissed him deeply and cried out as he and I came.