It's a new day, sigh. I stoop up, brushed my teeth, changed my pajama for my nurse outfit. I started to note down every finished task in my mind. Let's get this day started. Before I could walk out of my small apartment, I heard a familiar voice coming from outside. "Have ya eaten yet?" Audry was leaning on the wall outside my apartment, reading a book. "Why are you here? And what are you reading?" Curiosity kills the cat. I know that, but I couldn't help myself. Unfortunately, Audry closed the book dramatically before I could read anything. Sigh, It's a new day.
Walking inside the hospital wasn't as bad as it used to be. I somehow started to appreciate the smell of disinfecting liquids. Or maybe my nose has given up on resisting. "Oh my, was that a smile?" Lana came walking towards me with a smirk. "It should be close to a smile, maybe she won the lottery" One of her friends added mockingly.
Lana's friends were always talking bad about me. It was nice to know that someone didn't give a thing about you. I somehow needed that sometimes. I sometimes felt that I deserved to be treated like that. Besides, it made me appreciate others more. You could say that she sort of helped me become more human after my brother's death. It is always a good thing to have a bad example. That way you'll know how you shouldn't act.
"Our dear Sya did win the lottery because she has the best colleague in the world." Darius rightfully spoke up and gave me a wink. I know I should be glad that he wants to stand up for me. It's just that he makes me feel uncomfortable. I'm sorry Darius, nothing personal. I gave him a quick nod and then started walking to the office.
On my way, I passed by one of the rooms. "Hello Chris, how are you doing today?" Little Chris was the only one who could make me smile for the past weeks. He looked so much like Dyan when we were younger. He was playing outside when a bomb was thrown into his uncle's house. His clothing caught fire and made his skin burn. His uncle had survived the attack but wanted him to stay in the hospital for his safety. I had already heard that he would leave today and it made me sad. "I'm doing fine sister Sya. Uncle asked me to thank you for looking after me." He stood up and took my hand. "Thank you." His sweet smile made me giggle. He was only ten years old, but he acted like a little adult now.
I hugged him and said goodbye. My tears had already dried up a few weeks ago, so there were none left. Luckily, little Chris cried enough for us both. I had been his only companion here in the hospital. This part of the hospital was full of people who had survived a bomb attack. Most of them were adults, so Chris didn't have anyone his age to talk to. "Take care of yourself, okay?" He nodded. "Promise?" "Promise." He started to nod more enthusiastically as if it would help prove that he would keep his promise. "I believe you." I said softly.
My day wasn't different from other days. I started with the administration, then my supervisor came to tell me to aid a few patients. I happily obliged, I had enough of sorting letters and counting the costs. It didn't matter that most of the patients she gave me were the hardest ones to handle. One person kept nagging about his pillow that was not right. Another man said he was going to sue the hospital because I didn't smile at him when I came in. Funny, that's a new one. Didn't hear it before. Not that I was laughing at him, my face didn't display emotion anymore.
I counted that I still had 329 days to go. I think I might have a depression.
I got home at 6 o'clock. Maybe I should clean up a bit today? Like a robot, I started sorting my clothing, then cleaned the inside of my wardrobe. I kept cleaning the house until I was too tired to go on. I fell asleep on the small couch that night. Just before I closed my eyes I remembered that I hadn't eaten dinner yet.
When I woke up the next day, my throat was hurting. I was too lazy to get some water until I saw that it was already 6:30. I had to get ready, so I changed my clothes and ate breakfast. Today I wouldn't get to see little Chris anymore. My face contorted. Only 328 days, just put up with it. Maybe I could try to find some information about my missing parents today. But who could I ask? Maybe Audry knew someone. Then I'll just ask tomorrow.
The day went by like any other day and nothing really got to me today. Tomorrow will get better, I promised myself before I fell asleep.
"Audry, are you there yet?" I heard some sounds coming from outside my bedroom. "I'm here. How are you today?" "I wanted to ask you something." How should I put this? "My brother used to search for information about our parents, do you know someone I could ask about some clues?" Audry's face looked worried for a while. Then she gave me a reassuring smile. "I don't think you should worry about your parents right now." "What do you mean?"