Hi, my name is Alison Kin 17 years old and from a young age, I started to lose my emotions. Many people called me cold, mean or even careless they never stopped when I told them to because... It looked like I didn't care. What caused me to go emotionless was because of my parents, they hurt me and revealed society to me when I was little and made me go through pain and discomfort. They even threw me on the side of the road and see what I would do, I was terrified. I was terrified every single time but they put me in every single situation and I survived it. I've experienced everything now I have no reaction, no fear or humiliation not even embarrassment because I know how to get out of it.

That's how my life was I could feel pain but one day I couldn't even pretend that I had emotions or actually feel it just felt like emptiness loneliness and I felt that there's no meaning to life.

I still think the same and feel the same, I hang out with the chill people at school many teachers have said that I'm disrespectful to them because I don't smile I don't look sad I just look careless. But the truth is I do care, I care what people say, I care what people like, I've spent so many years to be one of them but I'm still human so that doesn't give the right for everyone to make fun of me or hate me. I thought I would be alone forever but this girl she talked to me like I was normal that was the happiest moment of my life. I actually felt normal her name is Suki Werm we've been best friends now for 1-2 years in these past years I've felt that maybe there is a meaning of life living for those people who care for you and love you. But that's not it, you have to try to make an effort and never give up.

That's what Suki told me today so maybe life will get better...