I walked out from there as I couldn't stand anymore.... Michelle followed behind. The moment, I went out I suddenly stop laughing. I didn't feel like laughing anymore at all!! ... huh, that is strange... I thought to myself. I was laughing like crazy few minutes ago!!! When Michelle saw I have sobber up she ask...
" What happened to you?? "
" I seriously don't know, I felt so funny then, when I heard that old man farted and sneezed at the same time!!! Plus, the lady next to him also added on to the fuel by acting all suspicious at the people around her, ready to point the act onto someone else....I would have stop laughing when again those two old ladies turned up and patted my back making it worst!!! So, I couldn't take it anymore so, here I am standing outside. " I told her honestly.
" Oh, damn!! I feel so bad I behaved that way. I am sure if anyone sees me behaving that way, in the funeral they would be angry. " I felt guilty.
" They may even suspect that Uncle Rin might have been my victim!!! " I told Michelle.
" Oh, sigh!!! Even Uncle Rin would be mad for showing such disrespect in his funeral... he was such a cool person. " I feel super bad.
Sigh!!
" Why would Uncle be mad?? " Esha pop up from behind.
" Oh you know... " I narrate to Esha all that just happened to me.
"Oh,Uncle wouldn't mind, infact he may be happy that at least you laugh, you know he hate to see anyone cry... he would not want that we are mourning away on a fine day like today...he... he was such a jolly person" Esha said remembering her Uncle fondly.
"We came to give our condolences. " I said.
" Thank you... I am glad you could make it. " Esha said.
" How is his wife doing?? " Michelle asked.
" Eh... not so well, but I dont blame her... you know they were still like a newly married couple and all... " Esha trail off...
"Mmmm...." We all were quite... we knew the conditions well.
After all the ritual and all the formalities we bade goodbye to Esha and her family and headed back.
"Oh, I am so dumb... I dunno what came over me that I laughed like that!!! " I said truthfully to Michelle on our way back.
" Come on, dont beat yourself up for that. It happened and no one found out... It was kind of an accident. " Michelle smiled.
" Kind of an accident?? I think I will have to lay low near those people for a while.... " guilt was suffocating me.
" Now you are over thinking again. it is now a past thing, and you did not mean any harm"
Michelle tried to made me feel better.
"Hmm.." Was all I replied.
"Come on, you cannot undo the past, just let it be, dont carry it around your neck!!its just like you want to carry around trash unwilling to throw it away, even when you don't need anymore" Michelle said.
I looked at her. She has so much confidence. Whereas I am all like a lost lamb...