I felt conflicted. I was happy that he was willing to protect me. His warmth, his love, and his protection were what I needed in this life.
I needed someone to lean on. But, should I be happy that I was safe at the cost of someone's life?
Is this truly okay? It might have been some scars and wounds today but what about next time?
No one was clearer than me the length of Jin's love for me. However, I would never want this love to consume him because, by the end of the day, too much was never good.
Suddenly, a thought came to me, what would happen later if we ever drifted apart?
What would happen to me?
I believed this was what scared me the most. It dawned on me now, this love was entirely different from a high school love. Being with Lian Hua was a reckless innocent relationship, on the contrary, being with Jin Longwen came a risk.
From deep within me came a voice whispering in my mind, "Are you sure you want to be with him?"
