august 6, 2004.
"Kirin! oi! over here!"
a girl's voice... heavenly and childish...
"Kiana, what're you doing here?"
"just visiting you, you know, it's been a while since we met, what do you plan after this? school, I mean."
"probably... rotting in my own home... I really lost all faith in humanity a long time ago, I'm just aiming to live my own life to the fullest"
"huh? what's with the serious answer? I was just asking if you're free after school"
"oh, then I'm going to meet some friends, why? anything wrong?"
"well... I was going to invite you to a place but if you're busy then we can just go another time"
"why don't I invite you? it's' just Mei, Liliya and Naoya"
"those three again? why do you want to be with them that much?"
"well... it's just that... no... nevermind"
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"look... we're here"
"they're still at school? haahhh... can't they have fun even with their school activities?"
the girl in a tennis uniform notices us and heads here
"ahh! Kirin! miss Kiana!"
"good afternoon Liliya, how're the others?"
"they're currently in the gym, what about you guys? I thought you two were going home"
"Mr boring here was curious as to what you three are doing... gaahh! seriously, why can't I have a normal friend!"
"what is normal to you Kiana? I'm quite happy with who I am right now so I don't plan to change for your interests"
"that's not what I'm-... haahhh... nevermind. you're right... c'mon, we're meeting up with the two others right?"
"oh! if you're going there, please say hi to Yuna and Tion for me!"
"yeah, yeah... well then, Kirin? you have aren't we heading there now?"
"right..."
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I said hi to the three of them, Kiana was called by her mother so she left, Mei was headed to the student council and I barely arrived with her leaving the gym. her school club is chess and since the locker room is in the gym, they set up just in the side of the self-defense club
I'm currently heading back home by myself, I left my family since they didn't want me to begin with but that's understandable... compared to my siblings, I'm the weakest even if I'm the second oldest... I really don't care what happens to them but neither do I care what'll happen to them... my friends are my indispensable family now and nothing's gonna change that...
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December 2, 2004
I've been helping the student council for quite a while, I've also been helping both Naoya and Liliya with their advanced studies, although that expense costed my education dropping gradually but...
"I don't typically care at all..."
"hmm? you said something Kirin?"
"nothing... anyway, school Christmas field trip is coming a week later right? do you have anything to do in that time?"
"I'll be relaxing in a mall... what about you?"
"probably going in a hotel admitted by the school..."
"WHAT? Kirin! you need to relieve your stress at least!"
"well... I don't have much to do... what about I join you?"
"ehh? ahh... hmm... sorry, I'm currently tied by that time, my friend asked me to come with so I don't know..."
"hmm... then I'll go with Liliya and the others..."
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December 15, 2004
the school Christmas trip is nearing its finish and I'm with Liliya, Naoya and Mei, the three of them asked me to come since their group members are away for a break and they asked me to come
"why don't we have a nice relaxing time in the spa near here?"
"Mei... that's expensive you know? what about... the movies?"
"you two pick for us... we don't have any preferences"
"fine... Mei and me are the planning head for you two anyway, so Mei, what's the plan?
"Kirin... is it really okay? we're not bothering you are we?"
"there's nothing to worry about Naoya... so, how's school?"
"thanks to you, we're improving but we heard that you were failing the class, that's honestly worrying for us since we do owe you for a lot of things"
"no need to worry, I can just repeat and nothing's gonna matter, I don't care about time specifically and I can apply for a job while I'm at school"
"if you say so..."
I... really don't want any more connection rather than them... any more and it will leave a heavier weight for me...
"hey, Kirin... what's happening over there?"
we take a look and there's a man holding a guy with a knife
「Let go of me! I'll kill you all!」
「sir, please settle down, the police are coming so. . .」
"that looks harsh... Kirin, let's go"
[in whisper: a time where this world will end... a place where nothing moves or proceeds... if I were to be dead now... will time stop or continue?]
"Kirin, are you coming?"
"a-ahh... sorry, I'm coming..."
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a night this serene... a park void of nearby light... we've been having fun here for quite some time and... it's relaxing... a change of pace... is always amusing
"Kirin, we're heading home now, we'll drag you if you stay here"
"yeah... coming"
a man... in tatters
「out of the way! I have a knife!」
"Naoya! watch out!"
"Ghk..."
shallow cut... blood spilled in the ground down below
"now Mei!"
「shit! I won't let you!」
"Liliya! call the cops!"
"already on it!"
"Mei! watch out!"
a slice, ripping her clothes slightly... Naoya.. protecting the her to his best...
「move! or you'll die by my hands you hear!?」
a huge swing headed to the cowering girl calling on the phone
"EEK!"
"LILIYA!"
without another moment to waste, my body reacted as fast as it could creating a fatal wound on my chest
"KIRIN!"
"n-... no..."
"Kirin!"
「shit, let go!」
"you... think I'll allow that? Naoya! now"
pinned down to the ground, the man was motionless, Liliya wasn't injured and Mei and Naoya were injured leaving me in a pool of blood
"Damn it... Liliya! where're the cops!?"
"there on their way! Kirin... no... please don't die!"
panting heavily on the ground Liliya and Mei immediately took me to a safe place and put me in a viable position
"there... just... just..."
"Liliya, there's no need for hesitation. Kirin, you have to live damn it!"
my mind... is beginning to faze...
have I... died? am I... going to die here?
"K---n d--t-"
"d-m- i-"
"are you prepared?"
a man in black, no face nor a body but just a cloak and a skull in its hand
"prepared... what is being prepared anyway?"
silence filled my mind... I see... 3 silhouettes... small... tall... muscular... and... one ominous smoke...
"you are dead, do you have any reason to die?"
"no..."
"you are killed, do you swear revenge?"
"no..."
"you have a family, do you wish for something?"
"no... nothing noteworthy..."
silence... once again
"I... am dead... this... smoke... is my vision of death... with a skull on its hand... and a body of shadow..."
"I am your vision of death, you are my client"
"and I am prepared with the hallucination I see in front of me..."
"you are about to abandon these people, three who gravely loves you for who you are"
along in its back, the three individuals who I gave my all to... Mei... Naoya... Liliya...
their faces remind me of my life with them... my childhood... my... hesitation...
"you... are my hesitation of death... you three are the reason of my fear of it... thank you..."
"you are about to abandon the person who loved you to her fullest, the person who loved you as a human"
behind it... is Kiana... so... she hates me now? or did I see it as something she was just obliged to do... I never really did find the time to reciprocate her feelings...
"you are about to abandon the person who loved you as who you are..."
walking through the mist... my illegitimate sister... smarter than me and the person who only cared for me and no one else... she loved me as a sister and I loved her as her brother...!
"death... I have... one wish"
"I shall give that wish to my client"
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waking up, seeing me in a moving ambulance with Liliya inside
「sir! the patient is alive!」
「then keep him alive you idiot! we have limited time!」
"Kirin! you... you're..."
"Liliya... sorry to put this to you... once... my sister... finally open up, give her this"
a small little pendant, diamond-shaped with a crest of a music note
"so-... -ry.... I can only make one..."
the sound in the computer started to ring a high pitch sound and my senses began to fade
"KIRIN!"
"your wish is up"
"I know... so... how's death?"
silence...
[I made this with little information as possible... that was way too close to home]