Aminah...,
Since seeing Rupert my thoughts were all fucked up. I haven't told Wardell yet either. Ever since seeing him, he's been calling and texting me trying to meet up. Something deep in me longed to see him and hold him, touch him, kiss him, and even fuck him. But Lately, Wardell has been making me so happy and I honestly don't want to mess whatever we got going up.
My thoughts were interrupted by my phone ringing again. It was the devil himself calling. Rupert. I bit my lip in anticipation deciding whether or not I should answer the call. Out of curiosity, I did.
"H-hello."
"Hey Aminah. It's me, Rupert."
I froze for a second and stared at the phone. This man broke my heart, he made me feel like shit, and he hurt me. I shouldn't be giving him the time of day.
"Why do you keep calling me and texting me? What could you possibly want from me?"
From the other end of the phone I heard him sigh. "What I want is to be able to see you, to talk to you, to just have a moment with you, and another chance to love you, if it's not too much to ask."
"You know, that's really fucking ironic Rupert because that's all I ever wanted with you." I shook my head disappointed.
"Aminah I'm so sorry. Ever since you left me, all I could think about was you. I have done so much to you and i never realized what I had in front of me. All these months without you I spent time reflecting on what I had done to you. And it made me see how much I hurt you and treated you like shit. I lost you because I did you wrong and I just want the chance to make it right. Please??"
He was begging me and I couldn't help but imagine what it would be like to have him treat me the way Wardell treated me everyday.
"Rupert I have such a good man now and I adore him so much. Okay? He treats me better than I know you ever would and I just don't think it would be smart for me to ruin that for you." I chuckled sadly.
"He is never going to be able to love you the way I fucking love you Aminah."
"He treats me so good Rupert and he fucks me so fucking good too. I don't think I want to trade all of that in for you."
"You let another man have what's mine? Jesus fucking Christ Aminah. You got to be kidding me right now."
"Nooo Rory you don't get it. I am not yours. You hurt me and you fucked me up and over so many times. And now I belong to someone else. And Shit it feels so great too."
"Aminah you're always going to be mine and you know that." He hung up with those last words.
Somehow I knew he was right in some ways but for now I knew all I wanted was Wardell.
4 hours later....
There was a couple of U-Hauls out in front of my house and Wardell had people in and out packing my things for the new house. This was the first time I would be living with a man and his kids and I was honestly nervous but it was something I wanted to try.
"Aminah!" Wardell yelled my name from all the way upstairs in the bedroom.
I ran up the stairs quickly in search of him. "Wassup?"
He was standing in the walk in closet confused. "Which side of the closet do you want?"
My eyes went wide. "We're sharing this room?"
He looked at me a little frazzled. "I mean if you want. You don't have too, there's five rooms you know. I don't mean t-"
"It's fine Wardell. I'll take the left side." He nodded and let out a huge breath he'd been holding in.
I laughed and pushed him on the bed then jumped on top of him. "There's something I have too tell you."
"I'm all ears."
"Rupert contacted me earlier." I bit my lip.
Wardell sat up concerned. "Saying?"
"Saying... He wanted to see me and try this relationship thing over again. And he said nobody Is gonna love me like he loves me....."
I stared into Wardell's pretty green eyes and smiled. "....He's mad because I'm finding happiness that isn't with him." I shrugged.
"I just don't want him contacting you."
"I know baby." I kissed his lips and he pulled me in for more.
There was a knock at the door right after. It was Ayesha standing in the doorway looking hurt from seeing us together.
"You told me to come over Steph." She rolled her eyes.
"Yea I wanted you to know where the new place was in Oakland and I wanted to talk to the both of y'all in the same space."
"Well couldn't I get a warning? I already don't like the bitch." She spat pointing at me.
"What you not gonna do is disrespect her Ayesha." He glared at her and she glared back.
"Alright continue." I urged.
"As you both know, the season started which means way more stress on all our plates. I need you guys to be able to trust each other when I'm not around okay?" He looked at both of us.
"Ayesha you know as much as you don't like me, if you're out of options I'm always here to watch the girls." I shrugged.
She nodded. "Thanks but you're not who I intend on bringing them too in times of need." She gave me a smart ass smile and flipped me off.
"The least you can do is act like an adult in a serious meeting." I shot back the same smart ass smile.
"Both of you need to stop it. Soon enough one day you might need Aminah and Aminah might need you Ayesha so stop this shit." He yelled at the both of us
Ayesha looked at me then at Wardell. "I know I act like a bitch sometimes but if I need someone for the girls I will call. OK?" She nodded at me
"Of course. And I'm good as long as you good, I literally mean no harm to y'all so don't think I do." I shrugged.
"Finally, one issue settled..." Wardell sighed.
"....The next one is schedules. As mother and step mother, when it comes to Riley and Ryan I need you both to be able to know what's going on with them. So Ayesha always inform her alright?" He continued.
"Oh what about game nights?" I asked.
"Sometimes the girls come with us, sometimes with their mother, or Sydel, or the family. That's nothing."
"Got it." I nodded.
"I don't exactly have anything else on my mind except the separation papers. Did you sign them?" Wardell asked.
By the look of her face, I knew that question caught Ayesha off guard. "N-no." She sighed
"I'm gonna go so you guys can talk about this." I stood up quickly.
"Nahh, baby stay." Wardell grabbed my waist and pulled me back on the bed.
"I kind of want to hurry this up do Can you sign them and get it over with because I want to get the divorce papers as soon as I can. It's a long ass process."
Ayesha looked away from us and at her hands. "Will do Steph."
"Good." He nodded as if he accomplished something.
It took another couple of hours to finish the house and decorate everything. By the time we were finally done it was around 2am in the morning. Wardell was sound asleep on my chest from helping the workers move things around and cleaning up. The house looked great.
I rubbed his head and caressed his face loving every moment of him sleeping on me. His eyelashes fluttered every time I moved around too much. His arms was wrapped around my body in a protective manner. His head laid right on top of my heart. Hearing his slow breathing calmed me and made me fall for him a little more. And honestly I could get used to it.
I yawned tiredly waiting for the next day to come already only to see my phone screen light up.
It was Rupert again.
He sent a text message saying to meet him by ColdStone by my old house so we could talk. The man must really hate that I'm happy cause he's thriving to ruin it so bad.
Having Wardell asleep on my chest made me feel so at ease and at home. I refused to move just to go see Rupert. He wasn't worth ruining the one thing going good for me. I turned my phone off and drifted off to sleep with a smile on my face.