Chapter 40 - Will The Love End?

Mo Cheng could not think further, he rashly drove home, but he was not in a state of mind to even realize it, he came back to his private villa situated on the outskirts, and he made a loud bang while closing the door there was no one else as he barely used this villa he went to his room and closed the door with a bang. 

Mo Cheng could feel his heart constricting,'' Why? why? Should I end up like this? the first time I saw you, I liked you, and the connection I felt with you was no joke, I could feel that I knew you long before, the second time I saw you; I wanted to have you for myself, the third time I saw you, I know that I cannot give you to anyone, it all happened before I could even know the proper meaning of love, then I loved you, which at some point turned into an obsession, you are a drug which I cannot live with, but where did everything went wrong, and how did it all, turn this way? Yi, I will never forgive you for making me this addicted without even lifting a finger but in turn, refusing to give me your heart, I cannot see you with anyone other than myself, why didn't you wait for me, why didn't I hear that, you got married? you even got a child'', tears rolling down his face; his eyes swollen, face beet red, the sight was ghastly and painful.

Mo Cheng could feel his heart in so much pain, he could feel his gut coming up, he ran to the bathroom, and puked his gut until there was nothing to come out of his mouth, he cleaned himself, and sat on the couch, his head started to get clear but the tiredness came over him, but his head was clear to make a huge decision.

Will, the love end? he could not even think about the fact that his love for SongYi would up this way, as he always believed that, when you truly love something with pure intentions, it might take time, but in the very end you will get it, seems like his belief was in vain and all along this was not how things work, his heart started beating as the thought of killing her husband and taking Song Yi came to him, as he thought, in love and war everything is fair, but to see the sad face of her crying for her husband, and living with him with sadness, anger, and all sorts of negative feeling, came as a reality check and he knew he would not be able to see her unhappy, he thought to himself, that even though Song Yi was not able to live with him, until she's happy he will be satisfied, but he will never live happily.

Mo Cheng opened the drawer from his table and took out an iron blade,'' Song Yi, you have always been my first love and my only love and will be my last love, my love for you is real, but I don't know why I didn't get you, I will be happy until your happy, but I can't bare the fact of seeing you with another man, I am not that strong; like every man, my love for you made me weak too'' as he said that; he slit his vain in his left wrist, the scarlet liquid started gushing from his wrist, as the liquid started flowing on the floor, the larger the amount of liquid flew the dizzier he became, at last, he could not take the lightheadedness, and fatigue washed over him, his teary eyes, started dropping with fatigue, as he close his eyes, not before saying Song Yi, will the love end? yes, my love for you will end only when my heartbeat ends, only when my life ends; until my last breath my love for you will always remain, my love for you will live as long as I live, this love will only end, on my doomsday''.