Warning: This chapter talks about heavy topics and maybe difficult for some readers. Parental Guidance is recommended.
This doesn't make sense. That was me. He was like an angel but he knew the answers. Hinata almost died and I couldn't save him. "Hinata!" I say softly. He is in my arms and I just couldn't let him go. My tears slowly drop on him. I couldn't help where my tears went. "I'm sorry I didn't say this sooner but I had a calendar. I was gonna leave everyone cause I thought no one cared about me but now I know people do." I grasp Hinata tighter. "Hinata you are so important to me!" I look at Oikawa, "you lying about us dating will never make me like you!" I say frustrated. "Hinata is a great person. He cared about me no matter who I was with." I say softly but with confidence. I kiss him in front of oikawa. "I don't wanna see you lie to me again." I say with more anger. I walk with Hinata to practice. Oikawa walks away with anger. "Hinata would you date me?" I say with happiness. He is still in my arms and he just sits there. "Yes Kageyama. I would date you." He says trying not to cry. "I wanna fly high with you." I say looking into his eyes. "I'm sorry I didn't tell you about the calendar. I'm sorry I'm sorry." With every word, there was sadness and I was desperate. "I don't wanna lose you Hinata. Promise me you won't leave me Hinata!" I start to yell a bit. "Kageyama. I'm sorry." He says trying to calm me down. "I promise!" He says to me. "As long as we are in this together." I say with hope. I learned so much from my future self. The worse part is that if Hinata is in danger again, I can't save him. Sometimes all I can think about is letting people down and I need to focus on nationals. I walk into practice and it is getting a little late. I put Hinata down softly. Then I see Daichi. "Daichi I think I'm gonna walk home with Hinata." I hug Daichi and suga. I forgot how soft Suga hair was and he is so nice to me. He is just so sweet. Hinata and I walk out. I am a little shaken up from what happened today. I just seeing how I can lose Hinata destroys me. "Kageyama?!" He says softly. "Yes Hinata?!" I say look at him with a smile. "Will you be my boyfriend?" He says looking away. "Hinata. I will be with you till the day I die. I love you Hinata!" I couldn't forget the first time we had kissed and I can't forget now. I have never felt love before. I love him more than anything. Is this what true love feels like?