"Robbie, I-I am pregnant," I gathered all my courage in the last fifteen days just to speak out these words, but I was not prepared for his response.
"So, what am I supposed to do?" Robbie asked, looking at me with eyes full of disdain.
"It-it is" I got choked on my words.
I don't know what I was thinking of, but this was certainly not the reply I was expecting. Is he going to completely overlook what happened between us? Is he not going to acknowledge this child, which is his too? Am I seriously going to be thrown away like this?
"It is what?" he asked in a steely voice, his grey eyes sharp enough to cut through iron.
This voice terrified me. I was tongue-tied. Why on earth was I such a coward? Damnit! Why did I ever submit myself to him? I am such a fool. I knew he was not the committed type and still...What should I do now? I am only 17. My family has already abandoned me and now him too. What kind of crime did I commit to suffer through all this? My eyes were stinging with tears that I desperately tried to hold back. The pain of being rejected so harshly was choking me. There was nothing more to talk about. It was an excruciating agony to know that my love for him meant nothing to him! Suddenly, I did not want to see him anymore! In fact, I did not want to see anyone anymore.
Damnit! Damnit all!
I turned around to leave and go as far away from this place as possible, but then I heard his voice speak to me in a mocking tone.
"What happened? You came to beg for money. Why are you running off then? Too ashamed to ask for it? Don't worry, I don't mind giving it to you. Get an abortion. Don't push this headache on me!"
WHAT?
Money? What will I do with his filthy MONEY?
Will his money stop the mouth which are going to claim that I am a man-whore?
Will those disgusting notes turn my life back to a normal one?
Will that nasty cash give me the treatment I deserve as a human?
It was so funny that all these Alphas think that throwing money could solve everything.
I couldn't take this anymore. I let the tears fall freely down my cheeks, dropping on my t-shirt. I felt a gut-wrenching pain, the pain of my heart getting broken into millions of pieces, that I started laughing. Maybe all this injustice had made me lose my mind.
I saw Robbie's expression change. His grey eyes showed shock. He asked me in an astonished voice,
"Have you lost it?"
"I guess I have," I said, still laughing like a crazy person. I laughed, though I felt utter bitterness deep down. I looked at Robbie as my tears rolled down my cheeks, "Isn't it funny that you think those bundles of notes will mend my life? Tell me, can your money erase all the memories I had with you? Can it erase me meeting you? Can it erase the love I had for you? Can it?"
I asked, glaring at him with hatred and pain. It hurts. It hurts so bad that I wanted to kill myself. I saw Robbie's smooth face grimace like he was the one in pain. What utter nonsense! He will lose nothing, NOTHING, after destroying my life. He will continue having his family, money, reputation, and hundreds of suitors for him.
And me?
Ha ha ha...What a stark contrast!
I looked at Robbie straight in the eyes. He gritted his teeth while looking at me with a complex emotion that I had no desire to comprehend with my current mental state. His image was blurring in front of me as I stared through my tears. And then…
I smiled.
It had to be the most painful smile I ever gave!
"Your money can buy you every luxury in the world Robbie, but you see, I AM NOT FOR SALE! You can keep that filthy money to yourself. I don't need a share. Hopefully, in the future it buys you LOVE as well".
I said, half screaming, half choking. I do not know what expression he was making as my sight was blinded with misery. Before he could reply or utter another word, I turned around and left. I didn't want to see his face again. I didn't want anything to do with him anymore. I just wanted to get away…get away from him, from this place, and this town to where I don't have to face my past ever again!
That day, I decided that I will live!! Live for myself and my baby. I will not give up and bow down to this miserable fate. I will fight till I meet my bitter end!