Last day of my vacation here in this country. Last day ko na din ito kasama ang mga anak ko. It's hard to accept the fact na iwan ko sila at malayo ako sa kanila.
"Mimi someone is ringing the doorbell!" sigaw ni Chael habang nanunuod ng cartoons. It's 4 in the afternoon at d pa gising ang anak ko na babae.
"Can you open the door for me Chael?" I'm making some cookies for Chael, he requested eh and I can't say no.
"Yes Mimi!" I got the cookies inside the oven and place it on the plate, I put some whipped cream for Channel.
"Mimi!" I run to the door sa sigaw ni Chael.
"Bakit baby?" He pointed outside the door. And to my shock nasa labas si Clay. He look at me and turn his attention to Chael. Shoot!
"What's your name little boy?" kinakabahan ako!
"My mommy told me not to talk to strangers but if your my Mommy's friend the I'm Chael." Lumuhod ako ako at lumapit sa tenga ni Chael.
"Go upstairs to your sister and tell your papa I'm leaving." May i tatanong pa sana si Chael but he choose to follow me. He kiss my cheeks and run to the stairs.
What do I do?
"H-hey!" I look at him direct his eyes but it didn't last long.
"I'm confuse." I know.
"Why are you here?" I change the topic.
"You forgot? We have date." date? Hangout lang daw sabi nya. And I didn't forgot nu! His the one who forgot it he didn't show up for days.
"I thought hindi na tutuloy eh."
"There's no way hindi tutuloy tu, let's go!" He is so excited.
"I get change for a bit!" I ran upstair at d na sya hinintay pa. I need to make it fast baka umikot pa sya sa loob ng bahay. After I finish to get ready pinuntahan ko yung kwarto. ng kambal.
"Hey Yunjin!" naglalaro sya ng mobile game.
"Yes? Aalis k daw?"
"Yeah, nasa baba yung cookies ng dalawa. I'm going!"
"Okay take care!" sigaw nya. Bago pa ako umalis sa pinto sumigaw ulit ako.
"Yung bata Yunjin dapat paguwi ko mamaya walang galos!" papatayin ko talaga sya kapag nangyari yun.
"Yes ma'am!" pero d man lang inalis yung tingin sa phone nya.
Tinungo ko na si Clay kung nasaan man sya. Thank ghad he didn't roam around the living room.
"Let's go!" I need him to get out of here baka kung ano pa ang makita. He smiled at me and nod. Bakit ang ganda ng ngiti nya?
He open the door and wait for me na makalabas ng bahay. He even open the door ng sasakyan nya for me. What's with him? His not like that naman ah. I get inside the car and thank him. I felt butterflies in my stomach, kung patuloy nya lang tu gagawin baka bumigay ako. Haysh! I shouldn't.
"Ally." kuha nya ng pansin ko.
"Hmm?" I whisper.
"Can I ask a question?" I raise my eyebrow secretly.
"Yes, of course"
"You don't have boyfriend right?" he already know the answer, why ask to? But I still nod to his question.
"You don't have ring or anything na nagpapatunay na kasal ka. So can I ask for a favor..." Bigla ako naramdaman ng kaba at excited. I know I'm assuming, and waiting for something big.
"Can I court you again?" ligaw? Tama ba?
"Ha?" If I want pwede but....
"Liligawan kita." I look at his eyes directly, his looking at me intensely.
"Pero..." I look straight at the road.
"I can wait for you answer but I still court you." I saw pain and it made me feel guilty men!
"I show you the Clay Azten moves!" He kid and start the engine. It made me smile somehow. This is maybe the last but I can comeback right? Sinaktan na nya ako pero ako tung ayaw na makita syang nasasaktan. Sinaktan na nya ako pero ako itong tumatanggap ulit sakanya. Kita ko palang kanina yung mga mata nyang nasasaktan, nasasaktan na din ako. Bakit ganun? Ako na ang nagparaya ako padin ang nasasaktan. Others girls want to make their ex's feel the pain like what they feel when their ex's left them. But me, beside him, don't want to see him in pain because it's cause me pain too.
"Your in deep thought."
"Ha?"
"Ang lalim ng iniisip mo." nawawala na yung isip ko kapag kasama sya. Ngek! Baliw na ko kapag ganun.
"Where are we going by the way?" I ask.
"Highlands!" he smile so wide.
FYI, it's our favorite place. And it's been a 4 years since I last visited Highlands. I feel complete all of a sudden. You can see the whole city down there. Pwede kayong mag camping and picnic dito sa Highlands, that's why I love this place.
Clay park his car at our favorite spot here in Highlands.
"I just get the basket at the back!" he exclaimed and wink at me. Napailing nalang ako. He looks so happy, d ko narin napapansin napapangiti na ako.
"I heard may bagong resto daw dito, we can catch fish at lutuin. Dadalhin kita dun mamaya but first lagay muna natin to!" Kinuha nya yung towel na malaki, I forgot the specific name of this thing. I help him na ilapag ito sa grass but before I can sit pinagpag nya muna ang uupuan ko.
Myghad! Clay your making me fall!
"Thanks."
"What do you want your sandwich? Strawberry Jam sandwich, peanut butter or Nutella." I kinda crave for tteokbeokki but then I realize nasa pilipinas na pala ako.
"Strawberry jam." He open the pinic basket and to my surprise ang dami nyang snacks na dala.
"I'm thinking if you....?" if I...?
"Want to go to Boracay next week? My family is going there and they want me to invite someone, nandun din namn si Candid so don't worry!" Talaga bang nanadya yung tadhana. Kung kailan ako aalis na, dun pa dadating ang pag asa. OA ko, that's why Candid didn't bother to invite me because she know aalis na ako.
"Clay I mean CJ! Ahm, I actually can't go." bigla naman nalungkot ang mga mata ni Clay, pero inalis nya yung lungkot sa mga mata nya at pinalitan ng ngiti.
"It's okay maybe next next week."
"Cj."
"Or someday when your free."
"Cj." his not listening.
"I can wait Ally!" ang sakit nung ngiti nyang d naman talaga totoo.
"I'm going back to korea!" that made him stop for a second pero nagulat ako ng ngumiti sya sakin.
"We can have sometime before you go, I can go and visit you there." I close my eyes tightly and face him.
"You can't CJ kailangan mo mag focus sa study mo your graduating student at aalis na ako bukas." mahinang sambit ko sa huling sinabi ko. He can wait? pano kung wala na pala ng hihintay sakin, pano kung pagid na syang mag hintay? Masakit isipin. We're silant for a minute.
"I can wait for you to come back and because this is your last day I will make this day memorable for you!" At that moment I can't think properly and Clay my CJ hug me tightly it's like our last and he kiss my forehead.
"I still love you and I can wait with all cost basta mapapasakin ka lang ulit." He whisper but I can still hear it. Suko na ba ako? Marupok ako eh, mukhang d ko na kaya.