Early morning...
The clock starts going off...
And I'm lying wide awake in my bed. The annoying clock! Can't it just stop ringing already? Oh, shit I forgot I have to turn it off by myself. Ahh, no! I want to sleep! But I have to #^$#;^ (this is a curse, that shouldn't have been spoken by her...) stand up early to go that :&$_*%&? (another curse... sigh, such a bad language...) school. Well it's not like I dont like Mei Mian or Shen Shenmi, but I love my dear sleep, since I don't get as much as before I was here.
"Kay! Shut that annoying *;$*(_(%" (so much curses today, I gotta cry about this!!!) bastard of a clock up!", Bency yells and Horiacio instantly joins him: "Yeah, he's right dude, we still have an hour of sleep, so let us!
I sigh deeply. Ah, if I didn't have to change at home to be this girl, Kian Kaiwen , then I could at least sleep another 10 to 15 minutes! With another troubled sigh I finally sit up and shut the alarm off. Then I sneak into the washroom and make myself ready for the day as much as possible. After making myself ready I start the run to my house. I'm late by 7 minutes today, I gotta hurry!
It's only when I arrive at school when I remember what day today really is. My last day in middle school had my last days with Mei Mian and maybe Shen Shenmi. If she is normal again. If not then it was the day before yesterday that I last saw her as my friend. Now I may only get to meet her as my enemy, whatever reason actually exists.
Looking around the schoolyard I don't see Mei Mian, so I make my way to the graduation ceremony. I sure hope everything will end well. I quietly sit down on my seat and wait for eighter Mei Mian or for the ceremony to start.
As I turn my head to take a look at the clock that's hanging right beside the entry of the hall I see Mei Mian walking right through but not alone but beside Shen Shenmi. So she only hates me, not Mei Mian. It was to be expected, I should have thought of it that way long before. They were friends for years (at least that's what I think) and why should they hate each other out of the blue. Maybe I've opened my heart once again. But not for good, rather for worse. I should close it, so I won't get hurt any more than I already am by this situation. I should not open it a third time. It'd be better off, remaining closed.
Let's look at it that way: since it is the last day it doesn't matter anyways. Even if we stayed friends, after today we would have departed into different high schools. So it all has to come to an end and this is no exemption. Today truthly is the end of it all.
"Kaiwen?", someone suddenly asks, judging by the voice it must've been Mei Mian. But since when was she allowed to call me by my first name?
"What is it?", I ask her surprised, will a hint of annoyance swinging in my voice. But it seems like she didn't get that.
"It's our last day here.", she sighs. Yeah, what about that? So it is. Why should I even care? (I'm acting very cold towards her. I even think that she is annoying. But it all is just acting. Deep deep down in myself I want to talk to her, I want to be her friend. But for the sake of not getting hurt I shut those feelings down and try not to let them come up in my heart.)
The director climbs up the podium and asks the students to their seats. I pretend not to care, since I'm already sitting. But Mei Mian seats herself right beside me, asking: "Something wrong with you today?"
I tend not to give an answer. I mean, what should I tell her? Telling lies is not my favourite hobby even though I do it all the time...
"Is it because of Shen Shenmi?", she asks. Uhm, she hit the nail on the head...
I sigh: "Yes."
"Ah.", is all she tells me. After that we sit in silence. Somehow listening to the director and the consorts holding their speeches. But in another way we don't listen at all. We're more thinking about it all. How it got so awkward. Actually it's sad. We could've been great friends. Mei Mian got me thinking different again. Is it some mysterious skill of hers? I should think how less I care, but it all went the other direction. I'm actually thinking how great friends we could have been! Isn't that the complete opposite?
Somehow I got in a really gloomy mood. I don't know why or how but I did. It didn't even cheer me up to be praised as the best graduator of all. I am used to being best and it doesn't matter to me anymore. I once swore to my parents that I would always do my best and I am always working on that. And my hard work kinda pays off now.
Everything comes to an end and so does the ceremony. With the end of the final speech of the director we all stand up and go our own ways. Or like me we just stand up and don't know what to do next.
"Kaiwen?", Mei Mian asks again. Seems like she still wants to be a friend of mine... Well, let's believe it for now. It is a nice feeling after all.
"Hmmm?", I answer.
"About Shenmi...", I swallow. What about her? "Don't take this personal, she..."
"What about me?", Shen Shenmi suddenly bursts in as cheerful as her usual being. Then she continues in a pleading tone: "Kuai Kaiwen, please don't judge me by what I've done! I swear to you, I didn't mean to hurt you, but sadly I had to! Did you see these two beside me? They said if I don't stop hanging around you they would hurt my little brother and do bad tricks to me in highschool! So I obeyed for the time being. But now I found out they would go to a different highschool than me. So please accept my apology and be my friend again!", she bows down deeply and even starts crying, so I can't do anything other than to kneel down and pat her on her head. It's fine, Shenmi. It's fine. Please be my friend too. May I ask you how you will prevent them from hurting your brother? I'm sorry this has happened to you because of me."
It's always me who does people harm. My parents, my brother, my grandmother... Now her... I will always bring unfortunates to others. What a pain! And now I am crying... Only Mei Mian's missing now. Come on girl, cry!
She might have been feeling awkward standing there all alone with Shenmi and me covering on the floor, so she crunched down to us patting us both on our backs, trying to comfort us.
After some time we both calmed down and went out of the hall to sit on the field.
"Well girls, this was our last day, wasn't it?", Mian asks suddenly. Shenmi and I look at her bewildered, is she for real? We can stay friends! As I think about this carefully I see how much I've changed myself in just this one day. First I wanted them to be my friends, then not yet I want them to be my friends again... it's some kind of drama, I guess.
"Why don't we exchange numbers with Kaiwen?", Shenmi blurts out.
"Ah, that is a good idea!", Mian says exited, but I have to destroy their plan: "Guys I don't have a phone." But the sad faces they made, made me think carefully and then I thought, I could give them the number of my telephone. And so I did. Well I might not me home if you call me. "I'm often outside. But I will call you back, when I have time", I tell them. Then we hug each other and go each to her own house. Now I'm lonely in school again. I think I will miss them.