She stared at her sister, tears falling in her eyes, whispering.
"Jie-Jie"
She was watching her sister dancing, with a man.
A man who she loved for many years. Sacrificing her youthful years. Biting her lower lip she could only cry silently.
Turning her back she couldn't see the man's gentle smile when her sister pouted. She was so young when she fell inlove with this man. But the man never noticed her, Never looked at her, not even a single glance. But when her sister left him.
She was the one who supported him. She was the one who cheer him up. She managed to make him smile and laugh.
But there is no thing in this world that will last forever. Happiness? Sooner or later you'll feel miserable just like her. A minute of happiness and a decade of sorrow.
She went back to her own room. Not noticing a shadow following her.
Picking up a brush, ink and paper. She sat down.
Dear Jie,
I wanted to see the future too. I wanted it too. There's so many thing in this world that I want. Our parents attention and love. All those things, You have it. All the things that you have, I wanted to have it too. But the god was unfair, He gave all of his love for you and forgot me. Yes , I got jealous. Who wouldn't? I'm deeply sorry, How could the General's daughter act like this. I'm not financially poor, My parents are alive, Have a lovely sister and a protective brother. But My parents didn't love me. And I'm jealous to my sister and My brother? He is protective. Really protective but not to me, but to you, my elder sister. You already have Ge-ge's love, can't you give me some too? Jie? You have what I want to have.
If ever I live again. I, Ning ShuFen (1) will never love him. Will never seek attention and love.
Shufen put the brush down. She stared at her pale hands, Calloused. She wanted to be pretty too. But she sacrificed it already for him. If ever there is a medicine for regret then. She, Ning Shufen will drink it immediately. Unfortunately there is nothing.
Shufen let her long hair fell down. Holding her hair pin. She stared at it. The phoenix was carved to it perfectly. This was a gift given by a mysterious man in a black robe. She can still feel his intense stare. Gulping. Sweat filled her body.
Now, It will end. She thanked the man for this. He was the one who saved her from being abused sexually. Although they didn't get to eat her, They had caressed her body, Sucking, licking and biting. Disgust filled her. Stop now. It will end.
Smiling sadly she went to her bed and grab a cup. It was filled by a toxic poison, even just by smelling it will make the person dizzy.
As she drank it she held her phoenix pin tightly. Tears fell as her broken heart continued to break.
'With this, Will I be loved?'
*BANG*
She felt her door was kicked open. Shufen saw her sister, Who was standing there, Shocked. Mouth wide open. Slowly tears fell down as she stared at Shufen's Body.
"NOOOO!!!"
Screaming so hard. Her breathing was heavy. She ran hugging Shufen's body.
"I'm sorry"
Shufen's last words was heard by her sister. She wailed, screamed and cried loud. Not caring about her image.
"Why!!??"
Ning Yaling (2) was so shocked by her little sister's attempt of suicide. All along she thought Shufen was okay. She was always calm and collected. Mature and most of all she was always quiet, not expressing her opinion as she saw it as a hindrance. But she on the other hand was the exact opposite of her little sister. She is Bubbly, loud but gentle. Chatterbox and she looks like she was the little sister instead of Shufen.
"Ling-Er your sister left a letter, here"
The man beside her held a letter. It was a bit wet maybe because of Ning Shufen's tears.
As she read it. She sobbed hard. Yaling was choking. The man could only pat her back as she continue to read.
"I wanted it too"
She whispered this words as she read it again and again. She couldn't believe it. Just earlier her little sister was smiling at her, talking like there is no problem at all.
She know that Shufen wasn't loved by their family, but she couldn't do anything about it. So she decided to spoil and pamper her sister, Shufen.
Yaling could only cry while hugging Shufen's lifeless body. She waited for their parents to come but no. Instead of her Father and Mother. There was a man who came, His robe was slightly messy. Yaling could clearly see that he ran here immediately but he did not manage. He arrived late, He was too late.
This was the man who gave the phoenix pin to Shufen. His name was Wu Chang (3). His knees touched the hard wood, He was late. He wanted to scream, Kill all the people he could see but he couldn't. Even if he wanted to.He couldn't move. Wu Chang's Body was incapable of moving.
"I'm late again"
He laughed, but full of sorrow. Making Yaling and the other's uncomfortable.
"Your Highness please wake up!!"
The Guard who was on his side didn't care if he will die, He shook Wu Chang's shoulder hard. Afraid that he would never wake up from this.
"Who are they?"
Yaling could only stare at him. Wu Chang woke up and he slowly stood up, staring at Shufen's lifeless body his hands trembled, heart shattering as seconds passed by. He looked at her hands and saw the Phoenix pin.
His face void of emotion was making Yaling scared. She forgot that she was still holding Shufen's hands. Wu Chang glanced at Yaling as if asking if he could hold Shufen's hands. She knew she couldn't offend this man and she could only nod her head and stood up.
°°°°°°°°°
"—Ahh!!"
'Too much pain. How? How could I feel pain? The poison that she drank must killed her but why?'
"Miss!"
Shufen wanted to move her body but she couldn't. The pain was too much to handle. She tried to open her eyes but failed to do so. Shufen can clearly hear the cries and recognized its owner.
"H–Hong wat-ater"
The Female servant was shocked silly, but after staring at Shufen a little she quickly grab a cup and gave it to Shufen.
*Cough*
*Cough*
*Cough*
Hong, The female servant was in panic that she yelled.
"Miss!!"
Hong patted Shufen's back and made her sit properly so she could drink properly. Hong waited for her Miss to be done drinking. She knelt immediately.
"Miss please punish this servant for being useless"
As Ning Shufen saw this, A memory flickered inside her. She didn't die. That was just a dream, yes. A nightmare that must be it. Shufen nodded as if she was knows what the servant is saying.
No. She clearly died, She poisoned herself. Heh!
I, Ning Shufen was reborn and I will never seek your love. Again.
"Miss!"
Shufen stared at the kneeling servant. She remembered a disgusting memory. This servant was a White lotus, Two-faced!!
"Well, well. It seems that you know your mistake"
The female servant immediately went out to receive her punishment.
I'll make you regret that you decided to harm me. I will never let anyone hurt me again.
"Fen-Er"
Shufen heard a voice and she quickly laid again and closed her eyes. She don't want to see her First Sister right now. Shufen didn't want to cry and her head hurts more than her heart.
She was pretending to sleep as she hears the door creaked open.
"First Miss, The Second Miss is still unconscious"
Ning Yaling went close to Shufen and held her hands tightly.
"Fen-Er When will you wake up? You promised to *Sniff* walk with me together at the Blossoming Future Garden"
Shufen wanted to laugh but she doesn't want to. She still have to analyze the situation beforehand before she starts to act. Although her relationship with Ning Yaling is good. She didn't have a good relationship with the Ning Family.
Why would a general want a Sick and weak girl on the Ning Family? She knew that her fat-headed father only sees thing that will make the family more powerful.
"Fen-Er, Jie-Jie is sorry that you had to experience this kind of childhood. But I can't do anything, My voice isn't powerful"
Shufen clearly understood this. Both of them are powerless and they are just a weak Miss. How could they fought ? But what she doesn't understand is, Why does her Family hate her. They Despised her to the point that even a mere third-grade servant can bully her. If not for her First Sister visiting her everyday, She's afraid that she will die due to hunger. What an ugly way to die.