People always are always giving other people fake hope,fake love and showing them a fake personality they are just fake people all together well you won't find any onestly good and true people if you look for them really.
As the saying goes "when you look for something you wont find it but as soon as you give up it shows up out of nowhere".
The day is Friday and I've decided to stay at home and take a break from school before final exam comes up and I need to write one paper after another.
Everything has just been super hectic no breaks,no time to take a breather its one problem after another and with every problem solved a new one appears such a drag.
(RAIN!,RAIN!,RAIN!)
I love the weather ,when it rains it just puts my body and mind to rest ,I feel much more relaxed than ever but not like when I smoke weed with my friend meelo.
And just like that the weekend flies by not waiting for a single soul.
I smoke weed because of all these problems , problems with my parents and the others like my ex girlfriend hayzill , for me it would be one typical story the girl im dating's boy bestfriend gets in the way and makes everything a problem so she is forced to make a decision between the two of us and guess who she chose?, yeah she chose her boy bestie which is such a drag aaahhh.
(MONDAY)
(Alarm goes off)
(Krrrrrrr!!! krrrrrrrr!!! krrrrrr!!!!)
4:30am my normal time for waking up in order to go to school I spend half of my life in a prison everyone calls school,where you get verbally abused by adults who don't know anything about your life ,adults who should get themselves a real life.
But I stand up for it because I need to go far in life and mom says that the only way I'll go anywhere in life is if I study,study and study more but if I do that I'll die.
I'm out of the house by 5:15am and I get a taxi until I reach the taxi terminal where I walk to the bus terminal that is just to the left of the taxi terminal.
There I wait until 6:15 when the bus actually arrives I sleep in the bus and get out of the bus at 7:40am and school starts at 8:00am so I usually walk super fast just to get my friends Liam and Luke and I end up leaving for school at 7:55am because Liam likes to take "50 years" to get down with brushing his teeth such a drag!.
As soon as we get to school I need to look into the eyes of friends and great then with a handshake as normal people do usually.
Everyone is there own person so I don't know what you would do .
Some are fake but we need to pretend like we dont know that just so they feel good about themselves (so sad/so boring).
Right after admin.So I walk in with all the homies following right behind,they talk a lot of crap that nobody would really talk about.
As we enter we enter with noise non of us giving a Damn what others think but its said we as grade 10E or THE EAGLES are family and we stand together well I hope we can do that for real someday.
The day moves on as always boring,boring,boring nothing special.
(Thought)"I WANT TO…"
Meelo:(standing beside me while holding a blunt in his right hand)Smoke!?.
Me:You were just reading my freaken mind you phyco!.
Meelo:I can't read minds but you do wanna smoke this with me right?.
Me:(standing up from the ground)Hell yeah bro!.
(So we walking over to the far side of the big field and sit down to smoke the blunt)
Meelo:(blowing out smoke from the blunt)So you still love hayzill you idiot!.
Me:(swallows the smoke by accident and caughs)wh..what…where did that come from dude!!?.
Meelo:(look in at me with a big smirk on his face)Oh my boy your face always says that you wanna fifty shades I grey her ass in the shower,on the kitchen table,in the bed even on the floor !.
Me:What the hell is wrong with you . Don't you have your own relationship to worry about fool?.
Meelo:Yeah she doesn't want me around most of the time tho that's why I smoke with you dude.
Me: that's harsh,Damn she's like ….
Damian:Whats up ?.
Meelo and me :Yo D'man, what's good?.
Damian:Nah! just Sara isn't at school today so I'll hang with you two,what you guys up to??.
Me:Oh yeah I didn't see here this morning.
Meelo:We were smoking a big ass blunt and talking bout girls.
Damian:Wait both of you were smoking that blunt??.
Meelo:Yeah.
Me:And what's the problem??.
Damian:(surprised by me smoking weed)Well some shit must really be going down for you to be smoking blunts up in here.
Meelo:He still in love with hayzill!!!.
Me:(embarrassed)Damn it,you guys suck!.
Damian:Oh okay if that the case then just give up.
Me: Yeah I know so those words from you isn't a surprise to me.
Meelo:Damn thats fucked up in my eyes.
Me:Isn't everything!!??.
Damian:(laughing)Damn!!.
Meelo:No idiot but just…nevermind (stands up and walks away).
Me:Yo where you going??. (Stands up).
Meelo:(walk in away)To my girl ariana need me for a while!.
Me:(shouting)You sure she's gonna give you attention!!.
Meelo:(shouting)Hell Yeah dude I'm hire as FUCK now so I'm not taking no for a answer!!.
Me:(laughing)You do you boy!!!.
Damian:(smiling)I really haven't seen you guys like this in a while.
Me:Well you just haven't had time for us recently.
(So I walk away and Damian follows)
(The bell rings as we walk up the stairs)
And just like that brakes over 30 minutes that really feels like 3 minutes.
Damian goes to class and I'm left outside so I walk over to one of my class mates.
Me:Hey Ray where should we be now?.
Ray:Aaaah…English yeah English.
Me:Thanks.
As I wanna turn and leave a voice says "Hey Isaac goodmorning" ,I NEVER WANNA HEAR THIS WHILE SHE'S IN HIS ARMS!!!!.
I turn to see even tho I already knew that it was Hayzill,she's standing in his arms her bestie Steven's arms.
So I just walk away without saying anything cowardly move right !!WRONG!! , because if I greated her back I could have lost my life not someone else killing me but me killing myself with no mistake that's not the greatest way to go out but it would stop my pain.
Even tho I want her body all over my body I won't have her while she's in his arms and my friends like meelo and Damian would say "If they don't want you guys together then FUCK E'M!!".
But I just don't want to get myself broken again so I'll stay away if I have to.