Chapter 45.2 SAD of Saferu part 2
AN: the story might entered its slow passed as I am busy doing OJT work and I can only use my little break time to write step by step using my old phone and I can't use to write complicated stuff like inserting system information or in game words as I can't memorize all of them and all this setting is save on the desktop back at home.
(February 14, 2020)
A Single Awareness Day story for all the Singles Celebrating Valentine's Day alone again today..
Cheer up guys, you're not alone! Let's drown ourselves reading a love story! Drunk to your heart content today *cheers*
Let's start the story with a music from Kris Allen Songs Live Like We're Dying
(Clap your hands..*clap*clap*clap)
(BakaNoBaka)
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[[Live Like We're Dying]]
Sometimes we fall down and can't get back up
We're hiding behind skin that's too tough
How come we don't say I love you enough
'Til it's too late, it's not too late
Our hearts are hungry for a food that won't come
And we could make a feast from these crumbs
And we're all staring down the barrel of a gun
So if your life flashed before you, what would you wish you would've done
Yeah gotta start
Looking at the hands of the time we've been given here
This is all we got then we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying oh
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
Gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying oh
Well if your plane fell out of the skies
Who would you call with your last goodbye
Should be so careful who we left out of our lives
So when we long for absolution, there'll be no one on the line
Yeah we gotta start lookin' at the hands of the time we've been given here
This all we got then we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying oh
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
Gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying
Like we're dying oh
Like we're dying
Like we're dying oh
Like we're dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
Gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying oh
You never know a good thing until it's gone
You never see a crash until it's head on
Why we think we're right when we're dead wrong,
You never know a good thing 'til it's gone
Yeah we gotta start lookin' at the hands of the time we've been given here
This all we got and we gotta start thinkin' it
Every second counts on a clock that's tickin'
Gotta live like we're dying oh
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
Gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying
Like we're dying oh
Like we're dying
Like we're dying oh
Like we're dying
We only got 86 400 seconds in a day
To turn it all around or to throw it all away
Gotta tell 'em that we love 'em while we got the chance to say,
Gotta live like we're dying oh
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The last one was a story from the other Saferu where the KoFO game exists. This time the Story is still about Saferu but the older one that came from another world where KoFO didn't exist and the girl Anne was not part of Saferu's life.
While the two Saferu had almost the same and similar background, there are just some minor things that made them different. And one more thing this story happened before the older Saferu killed himself for the first time. As you might not know the Older Saferu has an ability that when he died he will return back in the past but such past we'll always be different as the older Saferu tried his best to struggle and change it which will cause a butterfly effect.
This is the Love Story of the Older Saferu back at his original world way before he commited suicide and first died. The younger Saferu is also not present here. You ask why I have written this? A certain character here will appear in the original story timeline as Older Saferu is connected to the other world Saferu.
Saferu at the Age of 18 he studied in the Elite School known as Blue Knights Acadamy he was a first year college student which took a course of Engineering despite barely passing the entrance exam. He had no choice as the money used for his study was funded by a college educational plan that his parents prepared as well as his uncles sponsoring him. At this point of time his Family was not capable enough to fund his study at such a prestigious school yet they still insist on doing it just to show off to other people that they had a son going to such an amazing place.
In the entrance assembly this is where Saferu saw a woman called Elffa. It was the second girl he loved after Angeline. While he was interested but at that time he was still madly in love with his highschool crush Angeline. He was alone and had no one to talk to as the rest of his classmates from senior high went to simple college except for him. Yet despite all of that he successfully made some friends and managed to enjoy his 1st year of college life.
"Saferu look it's elffa.. When will you try to court her.." One of Saferu's classmates always teases him as he often mentions out loud that Saferu has an interest towards elffa. At the same time the girl herself clearly shows signs of interest.
"What are you talking about? I already like someone else.." Saferu always insisted on this kind excuse which further made him be teased by his classmates.
One day he heard a voice inside his head saying "If you can change the past well you rather make the same mistake or try your best to change it.." The voice was very familiar as it was his own voice but because of that he realized why he must not focus her attention and love towards Angeline when the girl clearly shows no sign of interest towards him.
So he tried courting Elffa. At first it was hard after all these people all came from rich families as he only came from an ordinary one not to mention how strict his father was and they had no money to waste on things like dating. But Saferu did not lose hope as he continued to struggle to save money hoping that when Elffa accepted his feelings then he had some money to spend when they started dating.
"Saferu how are you.." One day Elffa approached him.He was alone inside the room as he arrived earlier than most students. He was surprised to see Elffa so early in the morning. He was surprised after all this girl never approached him before despite them being classmates. Elffa was a beautiful Asian girl whose face can be compared to any super star. She also has a well endowed body that made any man attract their attention into her. Another was her clumsy character which further added to her charm. In a class where 99% are boys since it was an Engineering class girls are often courted by half of them. So Saferu has plenty of competitors in Elffa's affection. And these people all came from Rich Families as the gift they gave to her are all expensive yet despite all of that Elffa never accepted anyone her reason was that she was still to you to date. But the majority of their classmates realise that Elffa was fond of Saferu.
"Elffa you are very early today…" Saferu swallowed his saliva as he was very nervous.
"Ahh.. I happened to wake up early and saw that you are the only one here. It's boring so let's talk..Or am I a bother to you?.." Elffa's gentle voice had shaken Saferu's will as he nodded to agree on what Elffa wanted.
"Saferu you had beautiful eyes lashes did you know that.." Elffa took a closer look on Saferu's eyes as she finds it amusing as his eye lashes is more beautiful than girls.
"Ahh… I had no Idea… at all.." Saferu startled as his words are hard to speak as he was surprised by the kind of conversation they are having.
"Saferu what kind of things do you do in your free time..? Let's go into the mall some other time..?" Elffa was clearly inviting him but to bad the Saferu at the moment was just inexperienced virgin who has no idea how to handle girls.
"I just study… or do some part time work to earn a little bit of money..I had no time at the moment.." Saferu nervously replied as He and Elffa were so close to each other.
"I see the group well watching a movie later you should come with us.. You can't say no us classmates must hang out and do some bonding together… after school we will gather at the mall.." Elffa has a disappointed look at her face as she wanted to be alone with Saferu but she realize that the other person was shy so he drag the rest of the class to watch a movie hoping Saferu will join with them.
"Ok sure I think I can go.." Saferu and Elffa continue their idle talk as they become closer Saferu's nervousness slowly disappears.before they not it one by one their classmates appeared and they had to stop as some of their friends and classmates started to tease them being so close so early in the morning.
After the class ended in the afternoon Elffa gathered her friends and asked them to watch a movie. To a normal student this might sound luxurious but for elite rich kids like them a movie is no different than ordering a coffee as they can watch it everyday if they are bored.
They went to the mall but then a problem occurred. Half of them wanted to watch a horror movie but Elffa's group wanted to watch a romance movie. While Saferu also wanted to watch the horror film he felt complicated as Elffa invited him to watch with them. After they voted for the people that will watch horror or romance. Saferu was defeated as his classmate had likely made an early agreement together and he was forced to go along with Elffa's group. Inside the Movie hall way the girls also made an agreement that Saferu and Elffa should sit together. The movie was about a man who failed to get his first love as he grew older. All the women he dated ended up marrying another man until finally the main character settled down and married his first love. It was a typical Romantic Comedy but Saferu's attention was barely on the movie as he watch Elffa's face happily concentrating on the movie. Sometimes she laughed loudly, sometimes she looked sad her different expression had been saved into Saferu's memory. After the movie Saferu can't help but feel blessed as he greatly enjoys watching Elffa. He failed to notice that the other girl noticed his odd action and they started teasing Elffa. After the movie they left by batch as Elffa was living in a dormitory she will be going back alone.
"Saferu look Elffa is leaving already go with her.. Escort her safely.." One of Saferu's college friends pushed him to chase Elffa and so Saferu hurried to run towards her.
"Elffa wait let me accompany you on your way home.." Saferu was nervous as this was the first time he accompanied her home and they just silently walk together as they reach Elffa's dormitory.
"Thanks Saferu see you again tomorrow.." Elffas smiled at him which made him feel that his heart was like floating in the clouds. He vowed to earn enough money so he can date her.
He planned to take up more part time jobs. He had some connections outside where he could earn more money. Everyday he arrives at school earlier than most students as he often visits a small chapel inside the school to do his morning prayer routine. As he and Elffa became closer, neither of them admitted that they like each other despite the teasing of their classmates. Yet they became close as they sometimes ate together and what little saving Saferu had slowly faded as they often hung out after school and went into different places especially during weekends.
But fate made a cruel joke out of him. As Saferu's family can no longer take the burden of letting him go to college. The College plan they had has suddenly declared bankruptcy and his father had a conflict with his rich uncle who was sponsoring his studies. He was forced to stop going to school and had cut any contact with his classmates. A few months of struggle and they found a way to let Saferu return to school but then he found out that Elffa was already dating another man. His heart was silently weeping but he realized that they are just not meant to be."We failed we were never meant to be.." Saferu heard his own voice speaking to himself.
Still he continued his life while the distance between him and Elffa continued to grow as she was busy with her boyfriend and soon they became strangers to each other.
Saferu did not last long on BlueKnight Academy due to his family financial struggle. He was forced again to stop and so he stayed at the school for a year and half. As for the friends he made during his time there. He lost all of them due to an accident where his mother took the money intended to buy some books for the school. Saferu was assigned to buy books for his classmate while he was also given a book for free. His friends were well aware of his financial struggle so they often help him in this way. It was not a small amount and his mother took it to pay her vices. And when Saferu tried to explain he realized that his friends didn't believe him and soon he was isolated as a poor student who steals other money. Good thing he stopped going to that school as he was not sure how he would survive being outcast by the rest of his classmates.
A few years had passed and Saferu never had a chance to return to school despite their families financial issues slowly being resolved. Instead his siblings, who were known to be geniuses, continued their studies as he was left alone at the side. His family no longer bothered him as he was often left alone.
One day Saferu started dating one of his highschool classmates as they accidentally meet at the mall. His classmate was working at the mall at that time and Saferu accidentally saw her when she was about to return home. They used to be close friends during their high school days so they started dating like watching movies when the girl was on her day off. Saferu himself also found a job which was to guard a cafe. Although the wage was not that high, since he was a college drop out he was lucky to find such a job. Yet after a few months they broke up. The girl seems to want to work abroad and doesn't want a long distance relationship. At this time Saferu was not hurt at all. Did he love the girl? In reality he has no idea.
This kind of life continued until one day he met Angeline, his first love.
Angeline became more beautiful as the feeling he successfully hidden for so long tried to force its way out.
"Hello Angeline…" Saferu greeted her at this point of time Saferu is already used to hitting girls as he already dated different kinds of girls but none of them seems to last.
"Ahh.. Saferu for a long time no see.." Angeline words sound divine to Saferu's ears but the next thing he heard made him want to jump on a 20th floor building.
"Good thing we saw each other. I was giving some invitations for my wedding to my old classmates.. If you happen to find one can you tell them to get some invitation card from me...please.." Angeline then gave a wedding invitation card to Saferu.
Saferu hopelessly sighs as he accepted Angelines wedding invitation. He knows Angeline well, never loves a college drop out like him who is doing jobs with very little wage not even enough for him to feed himself or rent his own apartment. Most of the girls he dated had the same opinion towards him. An old person who has little money to earn and still leech and live with his parents.If he was more handsome maybe he can use it to do more work but the heavens are cruel to him as he only had an average look.
Saferu was already 28 years old when his siblings paid his debt and forced him to return to school. He was not yet that old but compared to the students attending such school he was no different from an old man. He can't comprehend this new generation's way of thinking as he was isolated as if a wall had surrounded him and he was often left alone. At this point of time Safertu has long lost his will to live. To a normal person if they heard someone say that they no longer want to live they will just laugh it out loud. After all, a normal person believes that there are plenty of reasons to live but failed to realise that not all people were like that. For Saferu who lost his will to live everyday was like a never ending loop.
Even if his father already changed its cold treatment towards him and his family started to support his studies, it was already too late. The current Saferu decided to live just for the sake of living until he was forced to return to school at such an old age. Saferu's family believe that it well saved him from being good for nothing but in reality they failed to realize that it only further made Saferu resolve to kill himself stronger.
Can Saferu forget how his family treated him like trash? How they destroyed his life forcing him to attend an elite school just to be abandoned later. How he tried to work for little money yet his father ridiculed him saying how his works are all trash! All these years the negative emotion in which Saferu just swallowed made him lose his will to live. But he never seeks death as he believes that despite everything that happens he still has a chance to live and die old but another reason was because he is a coward and can't kill himself. But everything changed when he was forced to return to school. At school he can see different people enjoying their lives to the fullest as Saferu saw them his negative emotion grows stronger each passing day. He can't help but feel jealous of why delinquent students like them are still being loved by their parents. He was an obedient child at first yet he was easily abandoned after knowing that he was worthless. Even when he silently did small pay work he was still being looked down upon when he never spent money to gamble, drinks, or women when he started working.
As he watched his old highschool friends and College Friends having a happy life directly opposite to what he currently had, he felt that this world was no different from hell. Some of these students didn't have good grades yet they had a happy life. Some are just gangsters yet their family never stops helping them. He also saw Angeline having a time of her life traveling around the world with her successful wealthy husband. He saw Elffa enjoying the moments of her life being a successful career woman. But how about Saferu? He was still attending college school being tormented by the younger generations with their odd lifestyle. While he did attend college he barely learned anything and he passed because the school will pass you as long as you pay them money.
After Saferu Graduate he took the money he saved and bought himself a good old fashionable coffin as he silently lay there as his face shows how tired he was to his miserable life.
He drank a sure kill poison he bought on an underground market and happily buried himself in an abandoned cemetery as his consciousness slowly left him a flash of his past appeared at his mind as he recalled the beautiful face of Angeline and Elffa. He died silently without anyone knowing. He was already 32 years old and decided to kill himself in this way. As the people he knows only learn of his death after he has gone missing for a year.
Saferu woke up as a blinding light hurt his eyes. He saw a giant being which greatly scared him and made him cry out loud.
"Congratulations Madam, you have a young healthy baby boy!" The giant's voice was so loud that it made Saferu cry more. Later he realized that he returned in the past as a baby with the same name and the same family. He was very glad as he had another chance to re do everything but he soon found out the cruel fate waiting for him as the heaven surely held some sort of grudge giving him a hard life regardless of how many times he returned in the past.