Feng Shuyuan's words were very reasonable. At least, there was nothing wrong with what she heard.
If it were her from three years ago, she might have really shaken her resolve and considered letting go of things between them.
But... ... The current her.. ...
She closed her eyes slightly and did not speak. At this time, Jin Jingrong's furious roar came from the room. Then, the muffled sound of the whip hitting the flesh also came to mind.
Her heart ached, and she rushed in without caring about anything else.
Feng Shuyuan pulled her back. "when Jingrong loses his temper, whoever stands in front of him will be punished twice. Although this kind of family discipline, ah Di, has not suffered much since he was young, but he is also used to it. Seeing you at this time, ah Di will only be more seriously injured. You'd better not go in."
From where they stood, they couldn't see the situation in the room clearly. They could only see Jin di kneeling on the floor, letting the whip hit his body, but he didn't say a word.
He did not even make a sound of pain.
She watched until her tears were about to fall. Her heart seemed to be tightly squeezed into a ball, and she found it difficult to breathe.
The warm sunlight shone down, and the outside of the room was as warm as spring. However, her heart seemed to be struggling with the four seasons changing all year round.
Feng Shuyuan's heart also ached.
The one who was hit in the room was her own son, her own biological son.
If it hit her son, the pain was on her mother's heart.
But she could not stop Jin Jingrong's stubborn temper. Even if she went in herself, she could not stop him.
Therefore, she could only watch, listen, and persuade him.
She really did not want to see Jin di suffer like this for Zuo Aiai, so she wanted to persuade them to separate.
This was her heart, as a mother, for her son.
"Auntie Feng... " Zuo Aiai, who had her back to her, suddenly called out to her.
She did not say anything. When Zuo Aiai turned around, her eyes were red, but her tears did not fall. The voices in the room continued, and the two women looked at each other and stood facing each other.
Zuo Aiai suddenly smiled faintly.
"I understand what you're saying, but do you know what I'm thinking about when I stand here and listen to such a voice? "
"That's right. Three years ago, I was indeed very weak. I found myself a dignified reason to tell myself that I'm leaving now for a better future. If I become better and stronger, I'll be more qualified to stand by Jin Di's side when I come back in the future. "
"However, I only realized today that I was wrong. Regardless of whether I'm strong or not, whether I'm weak or not, Jin Di will always treat me the same. ". "Auntie is right. Jin Di is proud. Even if I choose to be with him now, it's impossible for him to reconcile with me without any resentment. ". "That's right. I was wrong in the first place. I should bear his anger and resentment. I'm not afraid. What I'm most afraid of now is that if in the future, if I'm not by his side, if I can't see him suffer because of me, then Jin di should be very angry and sad. ". I may not be his weapon or his armor, but I want to be his closest companion. As long as we stand together, as long as we can accompany him."
"This is my choice now. So, even if Aunty said that I would only make Jin Di's life worse if I go in now, I think even so, this should be something that we should face together. "