First year as High schooler. Little me who name was never pronounce correct. I changed my name to allow people have easy way of adressing me. By telling them called me this or give me a nickname? How naive I was now I only wish to be caled by my real name. how stupid of me to be thinking I might met that perfect someone through out High school year and thought How pleasant can it be to be a highschooler? Music was a dream I pursued will others are indecisive. That's what I thought. I thought wrong. All I wanted was to learn the beauty of the music, but was exploided instead. I didn't mind it yeah call me crazy. the world of music and artist are exhausting.
Rin couldn't keep up with me. She could not keep up with practice I understood. Rin barely got out of recoverying from a virous is that keept her in bed for months. Drey, Angelina, Kaily, Katy, and me where always praying for her everyday. Me wishing it were me instead of her. Rins optimism kept me going. Even though she wasn't here by my side anymore.
I force myself to get up at at three in the morning. To get ready and start exercising. I could missed a day or else I get called out again. Even worse when the director keep everyone after the hour he was suppose to let us go. Passing the limits of over working every single one of us. we did not complain though. I took it as a punishment to me for not being smart enough or fast enough to keep up with the upper classmate. I wasn't a good player, yet I was good at marching and pretended on knowing what to do. I Had the passion to keep on going.
However, my mental health and stress levels went over the limit. Couldnt keep up with practice my last peace of me & passion went through a black hole. Pretended everything was okay in school even at home when all I could here is my parents on repeat how tired they are with me and my little silly dream. They got what they wanted I could hear is the silent laughs behind my back.
Physically and mentally exhausted sitting in my table waiting for the class to end. The office called me out. Dreya knew the drill when I am gone. By taking notes if I missed any when I am gone. Mrs. Lee notice my presence before entering the room. she is very nice and helpfully peron. yet I still do not let someone to notice my weakness. All I did was say hello and how are you give of that fake smile I could make naturally. first thing she said is hi asking same question as I did. I some how hated when someone ask me the same question. I know if I get asked everyday I might say something horrible. I answer I am good. Mrs. Lee making transition right away connecting my words with " It doesn't seem like you are good?" You know you are failing almost all the classes. Especially marching band. What is going on? is there something going on? I wish I could answer that I was not mentally stable and have improper life style. But I did not since I would of atrcted to much attention and just said it was just stressful to keep up with my studies and practice. She warned me as trying to threated me she would call my parents about my grades. I told her its not a big deal they don't even care if I pass or not. ibthink I pushed her button she called them right after I left from school.
Right after entering the house my parents called me to got o the kitchen. I knew I fucked up, but lets enjoy the show I made. fortunately. They just wanted me to cause less problems and if they get calls again they won't even bother. lucky me I guess. the year went by fast.
I thought it was over however. I was wrong life does not do free favors. It cost of my youthful cute face puberty, stress, and unhealthy diet. It Slapped me on the face leaving me scars for the rest of my life.
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Thanks to this scars my insecurities began to grow. why do people don't talked to me? Did I do something wrong? I know I look bad. No I don't have aids. Stop making those rumors.
Why is your daughter like that?
what happens to you?
You are pretty but... your face..
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Author notes:
Hello reader's. I am new in this. I got inspired to write part life and part fiction from my friends and me. i always wanted to share stories. with someone but I didn't had free time till now. I Hope you enjoy this little life/fiction drama. Also, I wanted to warned you guys to be patient with me English is not my fuerte and also I am still studying so college will be in my way of writting to you all. if any of you have any questions or concerns about my typing pls do I wouldn't mind someone criteria. I want to improve with the help others. Also, I might change on my introduction since I did it with an impulse of excitement to start writting sorry if I caused a confusión to some of you😄. I hope you enjoy and have a good day or night.
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