I got ready for another viewing and funeral all the tears I cried and the pictures and promises I made in a note and love poems to send him love and warmth on his way to the spirit realm and more pictures and mostly a lot of everything I was putting in his pocket like my tissues full of my tears and how he died kills me and when we got to the viewing and funeral home I walked in greeted his mom and after I went to see the love of my life in a box and death on him killed more of me then anything it left a black hole and void within myself nothing would or could help me in the world.
I told him I loved him and gave him a kiss on his cheek and there the tears came pouring. My family wouldn't let me go to his grave after all I was 16 years of age the same age as the love of my life even though his life was taken too soon. This vampriss dead inside and out with a major void not a soul could fill except for the one I am needing most.
I had to go and take my mind off of everything to do with Willstone so I had to go to the one place I could think of my quiet place where Willstone and me made out and where we would talk a place to get inside my own mind and the place isn't very big it's under the bridge I needed to go there before I go to Lornen's and his place is only a two bedroom with very little space and not enough lights in the small house.
I decided to go home first and go from there then to the place to get lost only for a time being before going to Lornen's place. I think I will just cancel Lornen's place and tell him I'll show up tomorrow night so I took out my phone and sent him a text.