Xue Lin went out to get some fresh air. While walking, she yawned. She couldn't sleep properly since she was worried about her future. She walked to the nearest park and sat down in a wooden chair under a big tree.
'Since I cannot leave China now, I should settle down here. I can take a job and earn money. I have an unfinished business…' Xue Lin clenched her fists. 'But will I be able to do it properly? For three years, I've been preparing myself for this. But I don't have enough confidence. I still don't think I've gained enough knowledge. I need to learn more; I need more information. And I'm not physically strong yet. Moreover, I'm having a hard time controlling my temper. If I can't get out of this situation, I don't think I can ever become a professional psychiatrist. I've been able to hide my mental problem from others because no one got in my way. But it's different now. Will I be able to hold myself back from losing control? I'm more scared of myself than scared of others.'
