What?!"I pulled back.
"Relax. I was kidding." He laughed. "But seriously how long can I hold it in? Yuna, I can't resist you anymore. Please forgive me if I do anything to you in the future. I even have thought of 101 ways to fuck you in my mind. "
"Wha- You imagine us having- ?!". My face turned hot.
"I'm a guy like what do you expect?"
"Um well- This. Is. Embarassing. Uh. I'll be taking a shower."
"Okay. I'll be going through your album till then." He smiled. I looked at him as if I was about to cry. I decided to let him be happy with the album so I let him have it. Or else I would've thrown the album right through the window while we were in my house. I walked into my bathroom.
I turned on the shower. But it's not like, he is the only one who is suffering about this. The main reason is because I'm scared. I'm scared as to whether it will hurt the first time. I can't tell that to him. It's too embarrassing to even talk about the sex topic. So I just can't.
It's a wonder even for me, to know that he's holding it in for so long. I thought that one day he just wouldn't care and just rape me or break up with me. He is just too kind of a boyfriend, considering we've dated for almost a year and nothing but kissing and touch has happened. I wonder if I even deserve him sometimes. I know that the time will come where I eventually have to tell him about this. So I have to prepare for it.
I wrapped myself with a white bathrobe and left the bathroom. Jinyoung was on the bed with his glasses, reading a book, wearing a full black night robe. His slightly wavy black hair, was parted sideways falling on his forehead.
"Yuna. Are there any places to visit here, that you know of? I searched on the internet, but I found none."
"Nope. I've already visited everywhere. But if you want we can go again.".I tied my wet hair into a bun.
"Let's go to the mall day after tomorrow? I have a few things I want to buy here."
"Okay."
I changed into my nightclothes inside the bedroom and dried my hair. I hopped onto the bed, where Jinyoung was beside me. I tucked myself under the covers and looked at Jinyoung expectantly, waiting for him to cuddle me. But he didn't.
"Wha- what are you reading?"
"A book."
"Ha ha" I said with heavy sarcasm.
"Come here". I readily came near him. He flicked my forehead.
"Wh-why?!"
"Because. If you wanted to hug your boyfriend, you should have just did so."
"I didn't want to" I flipped my head to the other side. I heard him chuckle and shuffle under the covers. He switched off the lamp.
"Don't go, to sleep."
"You said you didn't want to-" He turned and looked at me with those dreamy eyes.
I stayed silent. He looked deep into my eyes, until he squinted. He came near me and pulled me into his arms. I felt safe in his arms.
"Aren't you tired of me?" I mumbled into his shirt.
"Not at all. Why?"
"Just asking"
"Don't ask that again because I'll never get tired of you. Mm?" I nodded.
"Jinyoung."
"What is it"
I thought that it would be a good timing to tell him.
"The reason why I don't want to have sex for now-" I paused. "It's because-"
"You're scared." he completed. "I know, darling. It was easy to find out. I'll wait until you're ready. However long it may be."
"Thank you." I whispered.
The next day, we hung around the mall, buying the things we required. We also bought a small puppy plushie in Miniso that Jinyoung found cute. I found him scary and handsome when I first met him, to be extremely honest. He was calm and devil-like. It was his looks that made me look at him that way, I realized. When we got into a relationship, I realized that he is actually an adorable bunny that's just greedy and possessive over everything. He is a softie inside but a meanie outside.
He is just perfect boyfriend material. I still think that I'm not perfect enough to be in a relationship with him because well, he should be keeping his ideal girl standards way too high.
I walked towards the rack where all the cute headbands were. Jinyoung took up a headband which had bunny ears and wore it, looking up at me expecting a reaction from me.
"Aigoooo! You're sho cutee!" I exaggerated. I pouted and squished his cheeks when he was smiling at me, like a puppy happy that it got it's treat.
"Yuna. Yuna." he called my name impatiently. I was listening to BTS and Seventeen songs on my playlist through my earphones.
"Mmm" I pulled off an earplug and looked at him.
"Let's take a photo in the mirror. "
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My schoolmates were having a club party the next day. Fortunately, I could bring Jinyoung along with me there because I would hate to go there and be alone.
Jinyoung, on the other hand, wore black shirt and pants with a jacket over it. He gawked at me when I came into the hall, taking in the view.
I wore a tight black laced dress which stopped above my knees and threw on black heels. I walked into the hall connecting the room where I dressed up. The room wasn't any normal room. It looked like a suite room in fact. Jinyoung said that the room we were staying in, was the best room in the hotel.
"What?" I casually walked over and threw the strap of my purse over my shoulder. He shook his head, ten seconds later.
"Hm? Nothing."
I giggled. "YoU LikE The ViEw Don't you?" I teased.
"More than you think" He winked flirtatiously.
"You look handsome yourself." I smiled, sitting on the sofa beside him. "Let's go?"
"Nah. Let's go in an hour."
"Why?"
"Why you ask?" he brought his face near mine and whispered in my ear. "Because-" he paused. "I'm tired." My ear turned hot.
"Ahh- But we'll be late." I pulled away from him.
"Do I look like I care, darling?" he raised an eyebrow. I cleared my throat.
"You don't." He's playing with me and my heart hurts.
"Good." he smirked. I was fan-girling him in my mind. Stop toying with me and kiss me already, was what was going through my mind.
"You never change. " I murmured.
"Hm?"
"Nothing." I smiled pleasantly. Jesus. Christ. "I really hate you" I whispered. I heard a small chuckle.
"Baby-" he pulled my arm towards him.
"This is the first time you've called me that. "
"It will be used for special occasions only." he highlighted.
"What do you imply by that?". He hugged me from behind, giving me warmth.
"It means you look very very very hot tonight." he whispered. His deep voice was ringing through my ears. I fell silent. He turned me around and pressed his lips against mine. My lips sunk in his and I melted against him, because of the sensation. He kissed me passionately, sending butterflies my stomach. The weird feeling of comfort swept over my body, making my body grow hot.
The tips of his fingers slowly feathered over my thighs just when he was about to get intimate with me. A familiar ringing sound filled in the air, just then. God why. I got up from him and picked up my phone only to see that it was Jin-ae.
"Did we really have to stop for something so trivial?"
"We have to leave now. All of them have arrived except us." He sighed deeply.
Both of us booked a car at 8:30 pm and reached the Elixir Resort and Casino, which my classmate, Jisoo's father owns. It was luxurious and expensive. The building had a huge spade symbol in the centre, six times my height, with lights decorated on it's edges.
"It's big. " I looked up in awe. Jinyoung didn't seem affected by the size of it. I'm sure it was because he was born around the riches.
We walked through a large lounge into a club called Viper. Viper was ranked as one of the most hottest night clubs in the country last year. No wonder Jisoo's the richest in our school. The business had been passed on in her family for generations.
"I really didn't want to come here." I stated.
"I wanted to see your friends though. But I regret it. I'd rather spend time with you. " he said. I sighed quietly. "Are they nasty to that level?"
"More or less. Who knows how they are now. They might've changed."
"Then why the regret?"
"It brings back memories."
Jin-ae spotted me and waved at us.
"You're really late!" she yelled over the loud music. Surrounding her, were five of my old classmates including a few unfamiliar faces (I'm guessing it's their girlfriends and boyfriends) sitting on a round sofa in the corner of the club.
"I honestly feel sick."
"Well it's not to late to make a run for it." he looked at me expectantly.
"Let's go."
"What?"
"I'll be fine." I dragged Jinyoung towards Jin-ae. They made space for us to sit, when I heard a voice that made me freeze.