Throughout the weekend, I was thinking about what kind of expression I should use to face her next week. But the troubles are meaningless and deviate from the point.
On Monday, I came to the school and I was stopped by Ben in front of the classroom.
"Jack, do you know that? I just heard about it in the teacher office-"
His next sentence is a hundred times stronger than the impact of his previous rumor about Clarissa having sex with lots of men.
"Clarissa committed suicide."
In an instant, my mind was blank.
After a while, a few questions came to my mind.
Suicide? Like the song I listened to?
Why did Clarissa do that?
Is it because I saw the scene of her having sex with other men?
Really? For this reason? No kidding?
It may be an unpleasant experience, but it's not that severe, right?
At this time, I thought of a possibility.
Was she raped by the two men at that time?
But in that case, it is impossible to explain that she entered the waste factory voluntarily. And someone from Class Four said she went to hotel with two men.
No, these can be explained in this way: She was in some troubles, and she was forced to be raped continuously. Hotel and waste factory are just two of these locations.
Then on that day, the scene of her raping was witnessed by her classmate. And the boy didn't help her, instead, he masturbated while watching it.
It became the last straw to overwhelm the camel, causing her to commit suicide under impulsiveness.
If this is the truth - I am the worst man in the world.